Faith & Doubt
Tuesday, June 10, 2014 • 11:11 PM • 0 comments
I remember one time many years back, during my teens when I was super active in church... Melissa Nicholas, who was the coordinator of Lifeteen Ministry at the time, talked to us about our faith in God. I do not remember the exact words she said, but I remember perfectly what I interpreted.
It somewhat went along the lines of.."Yes, right now you are on fire for God. You are active in the church and your faith is soaring. You think that you will NEVER go astray. But will you still be, say 5 years down the line? There might come a time when you start to lose it all and go astray". And if i'm not mistaken, she went on to say something about how it is really important to cling to your faith and not go astray.
I remember that my initial reaction was.. no. no way will I ever lose touch with my faith. that's not possible. at all...(cause my faith then was rock solid).
So as I stumbled upon this recollection of thoughts in my mind earlier... I couldn't help but feel a bit fearful.
Because it's true.
Mel Nic was right. She was so right. She is right.
I have come to a point in my life where I have never doubted so strongly about my faith. That it almost feels like He is a complete stranger. I never had it this bad.
I'm so scared of losing my faith. I'm so scared of losing God.
What if I stray too far away...and never find my way back?
-Anthea ❤
