Sem 2 2012: Start of The Extended Year
Monday, July 16, 2012 • 1:55 AM • 0 comments
Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in getting up every time we do - Confucius
This is what I'm doing..getting up. from falling. and it sure is sore. and maddening. frustrating. infuriating. painful. I am not supposed to be here. this is not how it is supposed to be. and I never knew that extending a year ... would make me feel so low about myself.
and I never knew graduating on time would be such a big deal to me in the first place. why? why is it a big deal? what is so horrific about staying in uni a little while longer? why does the feeling of being left behind feel painful? ..I hate this. I really hate this.
6 hours until the first class of the semester. I only have one class, it finishes at 9.30 am and then I'm free for the rest of the day.
I probably should get to sleep. It's been a long, long Sunday. church, family breakfast, packing, airport/flying/arriving miri, dinner with housemates, shopping at bintang for a bit, starbucks, unpacking, getting ready for uni, bla bla bla..
My heart is a wreck... sigh. As you can see I still have trouble letting things go. But i'm trying. I'm doing the best I can. Bit by bit...
Jesus take the wheel.
-Anthea ❤
