I just realized...
Wednesday, February 6, 2013 • 6:43 PM • 0 comments
...that I have not properly congratulated myself for getting through my CALCULUS subject last semester.
I did not only PASS it, I scored a sweet CREDIT for it.
Which is really crazy, cause you know. I am the quintessential mathematically-challenged person who just hates math and its existence as a subject for the pursuit of tertiary learning (I say so cause well of course I don't resent the basics of math. But when you needlessly incorporate letters and symbols to it? That's when it gets really annoying!).
I have come to believe that in truth I hardly ever give myself enough credit for anything that I have done right, even for achievements so little...when achievements are still achievements.
The hardest person on myself is evidently, my very own self. I am always subconsciously punishing myself for my failures and shortcomings, for inconveniencing people like my family and for the things that I should've done right. Which is very toxic when you come to think of it that way. Guilt is a heavy burden to bear.
I really need to be easier on myself. I really need to learn how to love my inner self more and be at peace with who I am right now.
So I am now thanking God so much for giving me the strength to go through something that I really, really hated (you have no idea the kind of torment and pain Calculus inflicts on me) and for overcoming it much better than I had initially expected (I was only aiming for a 50 hahaha).
And I hereby congratulate myself...
"You go Anthea, you go! *pats back* You have done an absolutely wonderful job. Calculus is no easy feat. I am so proud of you."
-Anthea ❤
