DEWERCS MI.
Wednesday, May 16, 2012 • 1:22 AM • 0 comments
I am screwed.
Now I know that I have said that a lot in the course of my entire university student life thus far (though it did use to be "I'm so dead" and has somehow changed to "I'm screwed". however THAT, is not the point).
Since I use it a lot I suppose it has somewhat become a loose term; it doesn't accurately measure the actual depth of the shit i'm in. So it would seem that when I say "I'm screwed", truth is, I really am not that screwed. Probably faced with a little bit of adversity but that is it...in truth, everything is salvageable and manageable. But I still say that I am screwed anyway.
BUT OH, my dear reader, I never thought that there would be a day where "I am screwed" would be the truest, most ultimate UNDERSTATEMENT of a lifetime.
Now, remember a couple of posts back where I listed down what the month of May had in store of me? and listed all important dates for assignments and assessments?
Well. It just got worse.
Marketing Professional Practice Client Brief Proposal Presentation - 15%
Marketing Professional Practice take-home exam - 30%
Finance (Analysis) 2nd lab test - 50%
ALL ON THE 22ND OF MAY 2012.
All.
yes.
ALL.
And all I can say is.. HOLY SHIT, I am so damn SCREWED.
And it is an understatement. I am screwed does not even remotely suffice in describing the screwy-ness i'm in.
WHY DOES IT ALL HAVE TO BE ON THE SAME DAY? WHY! WHY!
I feel like the universe is conspiring against me. Mind you I RARELY blame the universe, God (or anything for that matter) for anything so shitty but seriously for the first time in my life I am almost CONVINCED that the universe is conspiring against me.
Well you know the funny thing is the take-home exam isn't supposed to be due until two weeks from now. But our lecturer issued the take-home exam earlier and so it's due earlier (all in the name of having a deadline-free study week).
In a way it is a good thing. I fancy the idea of not having anything due during study week. So I can focus on my final exam papers. BUT OH MY SWEET LORD WHY ON EARTH do you have to pick 22nd of May for it to be due! And the presentation too. UUGGGHHHH.
Why.
WHY.
I must let you know that I am freaking the hell out because I am honestly so worried about my Finance lab test. You see, I screwed up BADLY in the first test and I pretty much need to score a minimum of 37/50 to pass the entire subject. That, IS A LOT. And it's Finance. FINANCE. Life-sucking, cranium-shattering Finance. For bloody freaking petesake. And who THE HELL makes a test worth freaking FIFTY PERCENT anyway?!
If there is anything I am such a dumb blonde bimbo bombshell in, it's Finance. And I can't believe I freaking major in it.
So I honestly don't know what's gonna happen between me and Finance (Analysis) 206. I don't know if I can make it. I honestly feel this is insane. There isn't even a tiny glimmer of hopeful sanity in any of this. Bottomline, I have 95% worth of assessments due on the very same day. This has never happened before in my entire student life.
I am F R E A K I N G O U T.
This is THE MOST intense battlefield i've ever been in. I can't believe such a thing is even capable of transpiring.
It would be fine if my Finance is okay in the first place. Then I know I can manage. But it's not okay. Sigh.
My dearest Lord Jesus,
I am standing on ice SO thin it could literally be the mother of all thin ice. Holding on to a string that could snap anytime. Things are so crucial, and critical.
I will do what I have to do fight (it's not like I have that much of a choice anyway). But I surrender everything else to you.
I lay every burden down at the foot of the cross.
Please grant me Your strength to fight, and never back down.
-Anthea ❤
