Life's Odyssey

Decisions

2012-02-05T03:26:00.006+08:00

I have never felt so confused in my life.

Trying to reach a decision on whether to just carry on with my current degree or change my major. Both are risky; one makes me feel bitter + unhappy and the other scares me to death.

Changing majors is a petrifying prospect. What if things become way worse than it is now? Am I really that willing to extend another two semesters and graduate late? Be class of 2013 when I have programmed my mind for the longest time that i'd be class of 2012?

Going through the agonizing cycle of goodbyes and homesickness over..and over again? for another 2 semesters?

And then there's society. stuck-up, condescending, domineering society. ugh.

Surely everyone is going to judge and probably say that I am weak because I have "given up" on my current major. that it is such a shame how I am so near to graduating with a Finance degree and then ditched it.

Then there's the money issue. There goes thousands upon thousands of moolah being burned merely to sustain my pursuit of education. Which then exacerbates my already agitating guilt of how it adds the burden to my semi-retired 62-year-old dad.

Bottomline?

I am afraid of making a huge mistake.

Then I think to myself... what is this desperate need for perfection? to never screw up? to succumb to the notions of society? to always stay safe? to always please the people around you?

to never take risks? to always make the right choice?

even at the expense of your own happiness?

I resent the fact that I have been conditioned to never make mistakes, "thanks" to my upbringing. You're only putting unnecessary pressure on yourself.

I have never heard "It is okay to make mistakes" when I was growing up. What I heard, literally, was "You shouldn't make any mistakes".

Resent it so much.

I would say it takes courage to both hold on and let go. It takes courage to walk on, it takes courage to go the other way.

If I were to change my major I wouldn't say that I have given up on Finance. I didn't go all the way to my 3rd year in Finance and Marketing for nothing. I tried, and tried, but it really just proves with concrete evidence that Finance just isn't my thing.

It's not because I don't believe I can do it. Deep down I know my capabilities and book smarts are there, I can work hard to get through if I want to, but? I guess I don't want to.

Finance is just not who I am, I do not naturally incline to such field, I am not money-minded enough and I don't perceive it to be worth fighting for.

Staying true to who you are takes courage in a society of conformity where people strive so desperately to blend/fit in.

So maybe I will change major and take Public Relations. Maybe I will finally honor who I truly am -- a person of arts and communication. Maybe I will be able to live day by day not being burdened by pursuing something I loathe with every gut.

Maybe I will finally prove to myself that I am able to go against conformity. and make a difference.

Two roads diverged in a wood and I,

I took the one less traveled by..

and that has made all the difference.

Professing my love for.....

2012-01-06T23:30:00.004+08:00

I love an INFINITE number of things this world -- Ice cream, Sephora, my cat, a gentleman's chivalry, mountains, spring onion...(and the list goes on....)

But if there is only ONE thing that I could derive joy and mirth out of, and be filled with immense blithe that I would not EVER give it up, (even for a million dollars) it would be..

D U M P L I N G S

Pan fried Chinese Dumplings, to be exact.

(Don't really like Gyoza though, it tastes different. But a dumpling is still a dumpling! :D)

HAHA.

Drooling yet? :p

Well these are just pictures of dumplings that I ripped off of the internet.

Here's a picture of dumplings that i took:

Had this one a long time ago. It was somewhere in Damai. It was sooooo gooood!

So hereby concludes the post which professes my love for dumplings.

Why don't you go out and have some for yourself today? :D

Having the blues...

2012-01-05T02:49:00.003+08:00

Note to self: It is advisable not to engage your frickin' brain in so much thinking or so-called "deep thought" when you are sick i.e VULNERABLE, upon which...YOU, due to such vulnerability, might unnecessarily plunge into this massive, dark and dreary pit of weariness and utmost dejection, when you think of things that make your heart sink to the bottom of a sad ocean floor.

(Wow. what a huge overly dramatic overstatement. i know)

Yes i'm rambling, and I only feel like talking tonight. And sorta document some of my more pensive and introspective thoughts. Haven't done that on this blog in quite a while, have I?

I'm usually able to dodge my spirit-dampening thoughts off when my health is fine and kicking cause I wouldn't be as vulnerable.

I would think to myself..

"there are brighter days ahead",
"i'm only making my seed problem look like a mountain problem",
"things will get better when you do something about it, so DO something about it",
"for frickin petesake...it is not the end of the world",

bla bla bla la dee daa..

But now that I'm in the process of recovering from a cold (which I seemed to have unfortunately contracted over the new year) I am having a tough time making myself feel better about things, where pessimism is sorely inevitable...

And I can honestly tell you, that at this very moment, I.. am SO depressed.

For personal reasons which I may not disclose, of course.

The past few years have been tough..and dark, and I'm guessing that it has been a harsh learning curve, but these years have been a truly great teacher.

I've learned a lot of things related to living life, some of which include the super cliche "wisdom" or "nuggets of truth" you always hear about -- failure happens to everyone, even the best.

People are always, always mercilessly judgmental and will proceed to scathe your feelings with words that sting like venom.

Not everyone will understand the dreams you have and would render the desires of your heart as foolish.

But if there is one thing i've learned about making your life the way you want it to be, you can't be too idealistic.

I have envisioned, in my mind, a scenario of how my life SHOULD be as opposed to my real life. My real life right now, is just sad. Far beyond the idealistic life I have pictured in my head, which is unrealistically perfect.

and I have no control whatsoever to turn things around, to make things better, especially when my parents control about 99.9% of my major life decisions.. *annoyed*

But you know what? I can't be too idealistic. If I really look at my life, it isn't even half as bad as some people's lives in more unfortunate circumstances.

Hence I would say that everyone has their glory days and everyone has their empire-crashing-down days. Everyone's life flourishes at some point, mine just isn't now.

I'll just have to wait patiently. God knows what He is doing.

So even though i'm having my empire-crashing-down days as of this season in my life, I know that I will have my glory days again.

2 oh 12.

2012-01-02T22:55:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year everyone!

I know I've been MIA lately, (well not that you would actually care LOL), since the last time I blogged I have actually been feeling a little less inclined to blog/document recent happenings/events that have been going on in my life --- most probably because so much has happened that I wouldn't be able to keep up if I blogged about everything. haha. December was definitely a phenomenal month!

Now let me share with you how I ushered in the new year :)

My new year celebration was pretty low key. I was actually not feeling very well, had a sore throat and all. So I wasn't feeling excited or anything, I almost wanted to stay home and just sleep my way into the new year. HAHA. Which is SO TOTALLY UNLIKE me, if you know me...

But my sister sorta forced me to go out and was all "ko gila ka nda celebrate countdown you must be mad" hahaha. Obviously she knows me ;)

Had dinner at Toscani's. The food there has deteriorated, not as nice as before. Which is a bummer.. it used to be really nice. But i'd still go there cause it's a nice place.

Sis! :D

Tomato Bruschetta. Sis' absolute favorite since time immemorial.

Bruschettas remind me of her hahaha.

Wild mushroom soup!

My Fettuccine Carbonara.

Turkey Ham Pizza

Since we had time to kill after dinner, we proceeded to Starbucks to chill out.

Sis again! :D (as seen on twitpic)

Fun (or maybe not so fun) Fact!:

My first Starbucks beverage for 2011 was a green tea frap.

So for my very last Starbucks beverage 2011, I had a green tea frap too.

Full circle..

Then about 15 minutes to 12md Sis and I walked over to Waterfront.

Then we went searching for a bar where we could "tumpang" countdown. HAHA.

At first we wanted to tumpang countdown at Bed (from outside), like how we did last year.

But we couldn't cause they closed the curtains. SO SAD.

Then we ended up at Cock and Bull.

And there, we encountered a typically weird overly desperate desperado who tried to "kacau"

my sis and I. HAHA biasalah tu. It was funny though. haha!

So anyway.

this is how it looked like inside

So we had our countdown there. It was so-so. The countdown was a bit sluggish,

in a sense that it was a bit slow and un-hyped.

And they played Auld Lang Syne after the countdown.

Auld Lang Syne? Seriously?

Punya boring and lame.

But it's ok. A countdown is still a countdown!

Oh and the people at the table we were standing next to were so..omg.

Such boring people, macam KAYU.

They just stayed in their seats. And played with their phones.

Bagus kalau skejap ja. Lama lagi tu. And they were barely moving about.....

Party animal fail.

HAHAHAH!

Well.

It still doesn't beat Bed's countdown. Bed's countdown last year was the BOMB.

Amazing, AMAZING energy and awesome music, with fire literally being thrown in the air.

Moving on..

After Cock and Bull Sis and I adjourned at The Loft!

(I've tweeted about this btw, but i'm still gonna document it here :D)

Sis wanted to drink, so she had a San Miguel Light.

I settled for a Shirley Temple cause prior to that I had a terrible, TERRIBLE hangover

and was still in the state of alcohol trauma, namely a tequila trauma. HAHA

(I had a bit too much to drink during a mini house party I hosted earlier on in that week :P)

So Sis and I were busy chatting away when suddenly out of nowhere the dude from the next table

came up to me.

He bought me a San Miguel Light. He handed it over to me and said

"For you. Happy New Year"

hahahaaha. didn't see that one coming.

Too bad I HATE beer

(and had to throw the content down into the drainage after we left the place cause I just couldn't drink it.

don't sue me.

HAHA. I still have the bottle though hahaha matai)

Because he wasn't a typically weird overly desperate desperado (like the previous guy & a lot of other guys in clubs/pubs) and because he was, most importantly, young (and not some creepy old man. ew) I thought that it was really really sweet and it made my night :) guess he was just being nice. and no, he didn't buy my sis a beer in case you're curious haha.

So we went home after that, and my sore throat had gone worse by that time, exacerbated by all the smoke from the pubs we went to.

And yes, I spent the first day of 2012 being sick, immobilized and bedridden.

hahaha oh well!

And that, dear reader, is how I celebrated my new years..nothing much. How was yours?!

OH AND OH AND OH!

Before we went to Toscani's for dinner Sis and I dropped by at Suria cause Sis wanted to use her RM 50 Metrojaya voucher..

And she ended up spending it on me, cause the item she wanted was not in stock.

She bought me a Dior Eyeliner. YAYY! :D

So happy.

Thanks Sis for buying me this. Sorry about your Chanel nail polish not being in stock :(

And thank you Abba Father.. You're so good!

I have been a religious user of eyeliner since I was 15 and I have tried tonnes upon tonnes of different kinds of eyeliner, and I have used Dior before, and it is the best. I tell you.

(Btw if you want to know what's the worst eyeliner i've ever used, it has to be Silky Girl's. Sucks to the max. Don't ever buy it girls. I beg you. hahahha)

WELL THAT IS IT FOR THIS POST.

Don't really know how to end this so I guess I'll just say..

Thanks for reading..

Here's to a colorful 2012!

Letting you go

2011-12-16T23:33:00.003+08:00

From the title you'd think that i am, yet again, annoyingly writing a cryptic post as a love drunk girl talking about some guy you people probably don't even give a damn about.

Oh but no.

It's something else...

As a girly girl, and like almost every other girly girl..by default, I am a huge fan of none other than.......

Forever 21!!

It really, seriously gets my heart racing. HAHA.

I just love it. a lot. It's sad that we don't have it in KK. but then again if we do have it in KK everyone's gonna have the same clothes and the same accessories. Ew.

And this, was my very first Forever 21 item that I have ever owned...

My studded red zip clutch.

And it's in such a horrible condition. LOL

One missing stud and the sides are all kinda torn.

It's leatherette, by the way.

Harsh truth: Forever 21's stuff, especially accessories, are not very durable.

So after almost 2 years of using my red zip clutch,

I decided that I really had to change it, cause it's just so ugly to me now. HAHA.

But still it was a bit sad to let go of that zip clutch :(

And of course, there is a replacement.

I am about to introduce to you my new zip clutch! :)

It came in a box like this :)

I totally love the box. I don't know why I just.. fancy this particular box. HAHA.

Peekaboo! Look inside! HAHA

and...

ta-da!

My new zip clutch from the Fossil Maddox Collection :)

It sparkles.

It was basically the reason why I bought it.

HAHAHA.

I can't resist things that sparkle, ok.

This time it's not just some measly leatherette, but real leather :)

I didn't know it was made from real leather the time I bought it..

(I was wondering why the hell it was kinda..umm..well..pricey LOL)

I just liked the sparkles.. HAHA.

I only knew after I read that little note up there...

How it looks from the back :)

Compartments inside!

I abso-frickin-lutely love it.

My previous zip clutch has only 6 compartments where you can slip your cards in.

This one has 12. Freaking awesome ok.
And it also has a little compartment where you can put a photo! So cool.
Polaroid films for the instax mini fit PERFECTLY in it :D

A closer look.

It is definitely a different kind of style compared to my previous one. My previous one's very flamboyant and flashy (well my new one is still kinda flashy, but not so flamboyant LOL)..

I honestly didn't think I'd go for something like this, because it doesn't essentially represent who I am and what i like/my style is, but the sparkles did it. So i'm happy. hahaha. And plus, I couldn't find any zip clutches that were nice.

And speaking of Fossil, this is officially my 2nd Fossil item that i've ever owned! First one was a watch. which i got when i was 16. It's still alive, if you're wondering. I just don't use anymore cause it has suddenly become SO DAMN HARD to unbuckle. Probably needs to be oiled up or something...

And also, the Fossils in KK only sell watches, and in KL they not only have watches but also bags, wallets & stuff like that, so the fact that you can't get it in KK made me want to buy the zip clutch even more HAHA.

I have no one else to thank but my daddy and The Lord God Almighty for His generous providence.

God is good.

I left my heart in Kuala Lumpur

2011-12-10T02:42:00.003+08:00

Well not so much now, but I still miss KL and all that capital city buzz + glimmering metropolis lights. Minus the swarming of people all around Bukit Bintang and inhaling air that is so congested it could summon an asthmatic person's death. *exaggerating*

Still having a little bit of post-vacation blues but it's all good cause i went caroling and have been going out with my wonderful friends :) So frickin' fun ok, it is the absolute reason why I love Decembers.

Today.. me, Deb, Bren, Deon, Gordon, Karuk and a friend of his visited the Logos Hope Ship! :)

Sorry for exposing your butt to the whole world aunty.

But I just want to show the whole world how we actually get on the ship.

LOL.

We had to sit here and listen to some sort of demo or something.

Wasn't paying attention, was being very A.D.D. hahahaha.

Then we proceeded over to the books. and music CDs.

Spent quite some time there looking around. and also fooling around.

Then when I was about to check out and pay for my stuff,

Gordon was trying to take pictures of me with his huge-ass D-SLR.

The very friendly cashier noticed what was going on, she thought that it was some sort of professional thing...

like for some publicity thingie or something like that.

Then she asked me "Are you a model?"

Gobsmacked when asked such a question I looked at Gordon and we almost burst out laughing.

Then I said, with a smile and half chuckle,

"No, i'm not a model"

Then she gave me a look and said

"I don't believe you"

hahahahaha matai bossss.

Gordon told me later on that he actually wanted to say to her that I was a singer for a local all-girl band called "Girls Out Loud" and that we are quite a big hit and could easily help them buy a new generator for their ship. HAHA buduuu! Of course he didn't though. But almost. LOL.

Interesting episode.

So anyway we proceeded over to the International Cafe.

Took these:

Very cute round windows!

Hello bebeh. Look at me i'm a sexy engineer with monkey earlobes.

Had ice cream at the International Cafe. It was a lot.

It is hell worth your 4 bucks.

I had "tooth-freeze" after that.

Ngilu brabis!

Deb and I had coffee!

After Logos Hope we proceeded to Borneo Backpackers to eat, since Deb, Bren and I woke up late and hadn't eaten at all. hahaha.

I tried out their "sup kambing" as urged greatly by Deon and Gordon. LOL

It was pretty good!

Deon, Brenda and Deborah! :D

After that, Deb, Bren and I went over to Suria KK to jalan-jalan.

WE PLAYED

DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION.

I HAVE NOT PLAYED DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION FOR LIKE A YEAR PLUS.

AND I WAS SO HAPPY TO BE ABLE TO PLAY IT.

I think I love it more than I love Karaoke.

DDR ROCKS!

So anyway after that we did very girly things. We went to Watsons, Sasa, Nature Republic, Body Shop, (and another beauty shop, I forgot the name) and Padini. We tried on all sorts of make-up. LOVED IT. HEHE.

And here are the stuff I bought today:

Gateway Worship - The More I seek you

Third day - Live Revelations

Nature Republic - Black wooden eyeliner

Biore - Lip and Eye make up remover.

The CDs were so damn cheap! RM 24 each!

Normal retail place is Rm 30+ to RM 40+ you know! LOGOS HOPE ROCKS!!!

Yes. I am having a rocking awesome December thus far and I thank God so much for it cause it is indeed a blessing and it makes me happy.

In this festive season I choose to be happy and positive, and set my worries aside..

and I will deal with my problems (i.e finding the solution to this: what on earth do I do about my degree considering my ugly results?) when all the festivities have ended, whereupon I will sit myself down and ruminate deeply about what I am going to do about my studies.

Hope you guys are having an awesome December as well :)

Month #12

2011-12-01T01:46:00.002+08:00

Things may not necessarily be going swell/great at the current moment, BUT OH MY GOD, the UTMOST FAVORITE month of the whole year is finally here! It's like I live for December. Life is dull without the month of December. Might as well not live if there is no December.

Ok that sounds a tad bit dramatic I know. BUT DON'T YOU JUST LOVE DECEMBER?

I'm excited and I wish for the month of December to go by very slowly so that it'll feel longer. hahahaha.

HAVE A PHENOMENAL DECEMBER EVERYONE.

Things thus far

2011-11-29T02:26:00.005+08:00

So it is now my... 4th week of hols.

TIME IS PASSING BY SO FAST OMG that means this holiday isn't really that long after all.......

ANYWAY!

Things have been quite a whirlwind lately, went out with my sister a lot and pigged out... and I have, without a doubt, puffed up. I'm already puffy and tambah lagi puff by eating so much good food HAIH.

Attended Lifeteen's anniversary and that's another story on its own!

Got my results.

and I haven't told my parents

I'm not sure how long I'm gonna keep this to myself but one thing's for sure it.is.sucking.the.frickin.life.out.of.me. Been feeling very heavy.. & I just find it so hard to break the news to them.

The WORST results I've ever had in my entire undergraduate student life. 1 fail, 1 supplementary. Shit man. Not sure what went wrong.

But looking at the bright side at least I scored a distinction (which was 2 more marks away to a high distinction, damn it) and my academic status is still on Good Standing. But still... =(

Anyway.. moving on to less depressing things...

I had this for dinner today!

I apologize for the un-artisticness of the photo. I was so hungry I couldn't be bothered to take "the perfect shot". LOL.

Verdict of my salad: Of course lah sedap. The chicken was perfect! hahahaha. Tida tau malu oh kan, mokiazou betul.

Being a dominantly carnivorous person I need meat in almost everything. Which is kinda bad... right? HAHA.

AND OH!

Today, I TOTALLY geeked out when I saw the lead singer of the band ESTRANGED! Si Rich Gimbang. in Merdeka Supermarket! Astaga. Just so you know I am a frickin HUUUUGE fan of their song Itu Kamu. I sang it 4 times during a karaoke sesh with my sister last Wednesday.

So when I saw him (from outside the supermarket) I was like.. HOLY SHIT.

Hahaha. He was at the cashier, checking out.

Of course I tried to..you know, play cool. So I entered the supermarket, grabbed the one item which I was solely there for (which was Snyder's of Hanover Pretzel Pieces! IT IS THE SHIT)

Then I was stealing glances at Rich Gimbang to make sure I got the right person and then he caught me, HAHAHA, then I quickly looked away.
Malu boh gia. HAHHA.

He was with his kid and his wife Velvet. It's very interesting to see local artists going around doing normal things being normal people. Hahaha dui macam la durang tu bukan manusia juga. LOL.

I guess that was the highlight of my simple day. I admit I was a bit starstruck after that. HAHA.

OH AND BEFORE I LEAVE, I'd like to leave you with this:

LISTEN TO IT. I FRICKIN BLOODY INSIST.

It's my good friend Alvin's cover of Adele's Someone Like You.

Which he just uploaded.

Fell in love with it instantly! Hehe. Great job Alvin!!

7th Year Anniversary of Lifeline Ministry

2011-11-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

I have moved into my 3rd week of hols in KK.

It has been quite eventful (family gathering at the kampung, my cousin's wedding reception, and of course the Greyson Chance showcase HAHA..and plenty of other minuscule activities) I'm looking forward for more in the future!

Last Friday I attended Lifeline's anniversary celebration of 7 years being in operation. In case you don't know..it is a youth ministry for college students and young adults.

It really has been so long. I still remember vividly how they sorta..introduced themselves into the church (along with Lifeteen)..it was so lively.

I was 14..and i'm now 21. OH MY GOD I AM SO OLD.

They had balloons everywhere. Here's one. Haha.

The band/worship team's spot. Tonnes of wires yo. Hahaha.

Denis.

He was the emcee/host/whatever you call it for the entire night.

And it was his birthday.

He's pretty funny. hahahaha.

They gave these out to everyone that night. Token of appreciation. Haha.

At one point we were broken into groups for you know.. typical group activities which require

us to do artistic things and think creatively.. HAHA.

Then there was a part where we were all given a piece of paper,

and each of us in the group had to write what we thought of each other

in that piece of paper.
Nice things of course. LOL

We called it "affirming".

Here's what my groupmates said about me :)

Ignore the first word,

cause the guy who wrote that was a bit.. "special", if you know what i mean. lol

Hehe it makes me happy reading that up there :)

That is me in real life though,

in the online world I tend to be a little bit stuck-up and mean. HAHA.

Took a few pictures with a few friends after the whole thing ended :)

Lornetha, Amanda, Me and Deon :D

With muh lovelies!

By the way.

I am Amanda's first cousin from her dad's side.

And Lornetha is Amanda's first cousin from her mum's side.

So we're all kinda related...

Amanda said that she has my eyes and nose and she has Lornet's smile.

"Ketara related" dia bilang. hahahaha

Ok one last picture...

From left to right: Scott, Me, Amanda, Lornetha, Valentine aka Karuk and Deon.

BTW, Karuk and Deon pok makanan free seja.

They didn't even participate in the sessions. HAHAHA

So typical! LOL

Look at Deon's cute tummy. hahahaha.

And look at how our heads make a little curve!

BTW,

I was so shocked when I saw Karuk's hair for the first time.

I mean just look at it.

Terus one side of his head botak lagi tu.

hahahahaha.

Well it shouldn't be that much of a surprise cause we all know Karuk is a bit..ya know..

crazy and free spirited. hahahaha. I'm sure you guys know who he is right?

If you're familiar with the local Sabah music scene, you'd know. haha.

I'm guessing that is it.

I regret not taking more pictures cause there were seriously a lot of people there, was so happy to meet them after a long time. And I was too preoccupied, socializing and catching up with people, and also I was worried about my re-enrollment cause I hadn't done it at the time and the deadline was at 12md.

So I couldn't be bothered about taking loads of pics. LOL.

BUT ANYWAYS, this Saturday is LIFETEEN'S 7TH year anniversary! Yes. Lifeteen and Lifeline formed at around the same time in Sacred Heart.

And though Lifeline is full of warmth and love, my heart is still in Lifeteen. Lifeteen was everything to me when I was growing up from teen to adult. It was the only thing in my life that gave me true, authentic happiness. Leaving Lifeteen due to the age limit was heartbreaking. But life goes on.

So YES! TOTALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS SATURDAY =)

p/s: Exam results are gonna be released in about an hour..................... even though I sort of know how I did.. I am still nervous and scared shitless.

My Greyson Chance Experience

2011-11-19T03:59:00.002+08:00

WARNING: LONG POST.

So grab your coffee and make yourselves comfortable =)

I have been a fan of Greyson Chance's music way before the news that he was coming to KK to do a showcase hit the entire KK community. I have listened to his music A LOT, and I find that his songs are very meaningful. and incredibly deep for a 14 year old.

And because of that, I was able to appreciate the fact that he was coming here A LOT more than those people who make fun of him on Facebook and those who ask "Who is Greyson Chance?"

If you don't know who Greyson Chance is then go and google la! As simple as that. Kin panas.

Then they all say, "Oh he's another Justin Bieber. Another Hanna Montana/ Miley Cyrus"

and stuff like that. which is bullshit. more on this later.

And if you don't know who Greyson Chance is,

then it's obvious you don't watch The Ellen DeGeneres show.

SO ANYWAY. Lets talk about the showcase!

Apparently, there were fan girls already waiting at the venue at 10 in the morning. The showcase was at 8.30pm. Madness!

I dragged mum and dad to 1Borneo, so we arrived at around 3.30pm (no they did not watch the showcase, if ur wondering. HAHAHA. I was joined by my sister for awhile but she couldn't tahan the crowd and heat so she left. hahahah so I watched the rest of the showcase alone)

Hung around here and there for a while. BTW, I BUMPED INTO SO MANY PEOPLE. It was great to meet and talk to them for a bit!

And we even watched Happy Feet 2. My mum so badly wanted to watch it. I was really reluctant at first and even said out loud in the cinema "I can't believe we're watching this". HAHAHA. Turns out I really liked it in the end. OK, getting offtrack now..that's a whole story on its own.. back to the showcase...

After the movie, had dinner and went to the venue, which was at the 1Borneo Gourmet Lane, at around 8.10pm. Thought that it would be mindblowingly crowded but it wasn't so bad..so phew.

PICTURE TIME!

(note: if you are on my facebook/have seen my twitpics then you would've seen most of these pics already)

The pair of showcase passes that I won!

Would you look at that crowd.

And like I said on FB, i'm very sure that many people were there

just for the sake of seeing someone famous.

Are they real true fans? Cause if they are they would know

his other songs besides "Waiting outside the lines"

and would've sang along word by word. haha.

Even met an acquaintance and she said "The only song I know is Waiting outside the lines"

haha..

View was blocked by so many heads.

I was wishing I wore my wedges instead..

(uish, that rhymed HAHA)

Cause my wedges make me as tall as 170 cm.

PRETTY STAGE LIGHTS!

Before Greyson came out on stage he tweeted this:

And like less than 2 minutes after I read it he CAME OUT ON STAGE!!!!!

Didn't get to snap pics of him when he first came out though cause my view kept on getting blocked.

And the way the audience screamed.. my eardrums literally went numb.

For a second there I wasn't sure my eardrums were still working or not.

Insane...

The first song he performed was "Unfriend You".

Greyson and Rica Hitz talking about something. I think this was when

they were talking about how Hitz.FM forced him to eat durian.

and he didn't like the durian.

and said 'I still love my American fries"

hahahaha.

And i think this one was during the lucky draw for exclusive meet and greet passes.

Here are some pics of him performing:

I frickin' love this shot.

I call it concert art. As in photography art.

hahahaha.

"Concert art" HAHA

Singing his heart out

He didn't perform the whole album, he performed just a few songs. BUT I WAS SO DAMN FREAKING HAPPY AND SHIT HELL EXCITED WHEN HE SANG "HOME IS IN YOUR EYES". MY FRICKIN' FAVORITE!!

I was the only one in the crowd singing along :( Sedihnya...

Oh he also performed Paparazzi. The song which was his big break to his entire music career and Hollywood stardom.

I've tweeted about all these stuff too but I guess i'll say it again..

His performance of "Cheyenne" was amazing. Really connected with his audience. Well at least I felt connected. While everyone was busy immortalizing that performance of his through video recording, I was busy internalizing it. It was amazing.

He was a bit pitchy and his voice cracked at some points, but when he hits his notes spot on HE SOUNDS JUST LIKE IN HIS RECORDINGS. SERIOUSLY! Amazing..

Anyway the showcase ended quite early, like around 9.30pm. I was already sticky and smelly cause it was SO HOT and we were all squashed together like canned sardines. Seriously. Traumatizing..

Being in a crowd like that is seriously so damn irritating. You have no idea. HAHA

SO AFTER THE PERFORMANCE, was album signing! But then no pics with him allowed :( Sedih..But nevermind. Here are a few pictures of him signing albums.

By the way. I waited for almost half an hour in a "canned sardine" situation while waiting for my turn to get my album signed and to meet Greyson. hahahha gila I could hardly BREATHE! but it was worth it.

He had a lot of albums to sign.

Even so he still looked calm and un-cranky.

Kalau sya tu sya nda tau sya larat kah nda sign gitu banyak.

hahaha.

I managed to get an unflattering picture of him. HAHAHA.

So I did get the chance to meet him very briefly. I thought I wasn't even gonna meet him at all hahaha.

I'm not like my friend Gordon (who's a journalist for Sabah Times) who got the chance to meet him personally and be the photographer of the story they were covering on Greyson...(bikin jeles juga la.. hahaha)

So it was very brief. I said "Hi Greyson" (it was a bit muffled from the loud music though) and then he looked up to acknowledge my Hi and I believe he mouthed the word 'Hi' back, it was too loud couldn't really hear him, and they were hurrying me up and it all happened so fast I couldn't really process what was happening at first. HAHAHA

But yes, he looked up and had this intense eye contact with him and I saw that his eyes were really so pretty. Typical orang putih eyes. hahaha. It happened so quickly. Like 2 seconds. Then he continued signing other albums then I went down the stage.. He was very busy.

Then that's when I met Gordon too and he started bragging about HIS Greyson Chance experience.. bikin panas. hahahaha.

My signed copy of his album =)

And quoting what I said on facebook:

"If you watched his interviews on youtube or anywhere you would know that Greyson speaks and expresses himself very eloquently, and that he is wise beyond his years.

You may think that he is just some kid or another Justin Bieber or some overrated mainstream artist, but he is definitely something. He has talent, he writes good and meaningful songs, and he is definitely not your average 14-year-old. "

Seriously people. Before you go on judging him about how he sounds like a girl or how he is another Justin Bieber (by the way, his music is DIFFERENT from JB's, he said it himself in an interview), go and do your research and take time to get to know him, through his interviews.

before you make assumptions that make you look like an idiot.

He is a very sweet boy, a great performer and he definitely has a bright future ahead of him. He is only 14 but he is already worth $2.5 million. Well not as much as JB who is $65 million but.. it's still mind blowing. haha.

I am happy that Greyson came to KK to do a show. I would have firstly thanked him for that if I had the chance to talk to him...then I would've asked him to say Hi to Ellen DeGeneres for me. hahahaha.

And this may sound so shallow and superficial but I feel that it makes this city a bit more significant. haha. well i don't know. If you have Hollywood Showbiz dreams like me then maybe you'd understand.

So even though I only met him for a brief moment, at least I can check this off my bucket list :)

image source: http://perfectbucketlist.tumblr.com/post/10901113090

Meet Greyson Chance before I die? Check. =)

Day 11

2011-11-17T00:38:00.003+08:00

I have been cooped up at home for 3 consecutive days.

Usually I would have gone absolutely NUTS by now, but I don't know somehow I'm ok. haha. Though I do feel like my life not only revolves around the laptop, but also the kitchen and washing the dishes....

GETTING SICK OF IT LOL.

I do get to do what I enjoy though. Which is to whip up a few experimental dishes...you know, tweaking recipes to make it suit my personal taste and preference :)

I made lunch today, and here's what was in it...

Tomatoes

SHRIMP!!!

Chili and Spring Onion!

I FRICKIN' LOVE SPRING ONION

Chopped Garlic and Red Onion.

By the way.

I cried a whole river while chopping the red onions.

It happens every.single.time.i.chop.red.onions.

but it doesn't happen to my mum.

which I don't understand.

CHOPPING RED ONIONS = SERIOUSLY NOT MY THING. ughh. LOL.

But i love red onions :(

AND VOILA, THE OUTCOME!

Prawn spaghetti..

a very asian-ish prawn spaghetti

cause of the spring onion and chili. HAHA

So here's how I cooked it. I sauteed the prawns in olive oil, then added in some wine (Peter Vella to be exact hahaha). and some salt. IT WAS DIVINE.

Then in another pan I melted the butter. YES BUTTER. FREAKING FATTENING CALORIE-LADEN BUTTER (ok you get my point) and then I added salt to the butter since the butter I was using was the unsalted kind.

Then I sauteed the garlic and onions in it. Threw in the sliced chili. Let it simmer a little bit.. Then I added the spaghetti. Tossed it a bit here and there. Threw in the prawns. Tossed it some more.

Transferred it onto muh FAVVORRITEE yellow plate. And I topped it with shitloads of spring onion. The spring onion is from our very own garden by the way, so it was FRESSHHH.

VERDICT?

IT WAS DIVINE. HAHA I don't mean to brag but seriously. Probably one of my BEST dishes!

Looks A LOT more appetizing in full view.. CLICK THE PICTURE! hahaha

Though next time I would use a little less butter and let the chili cook a little longer.

I'm hungry now staring at these pictures... HAHA.

Well I guess that's it. OH YEAH! I'm gonna go see Greyson Chance's showcase tomorrow! I'm kind excited. I actually won 2 passes to go see his showcase. Haha. But I don't really think I'd be able to meet him personally though since I don't have an exclusive invite AND there will be a multitude of screaming female tweens/teens tomorrow...

It's a daunting prospect and it seriously turns me OFF (the fact that it is going to be so crowded tomorrow), but come on man. It is Greyson Chance from the frickin United States of America, who was on The ELLEN DEGENERES SHOW and is acquainted with Lady Gaga and Justin Bieber. and other celebrities. lol.

I honestly love his work though :) Which is why I freaked out when I knew he was coming to KK... I MEAN WHO ACTUALLY COMES TO KK TO DO A SHOW? NOBODY. Semua pun di KL ja. KL KL KL. kin panas.. hahahaha.

Alright. I will zip it cause I know this is getting too long haha.

So are there any of you who'll be going to the showcase too? :)

LIGHTS!

2011-11-12T01:12:00.000+08:00

Was feeling festive since Christmas is on its way so I decided to put lights up in my room!!!

I am obsessed with lights. Pretty lights. Always have. Always will. Cause they are the closest things to stars. And if you know me, you would know that I am psychotic about stars and starlit night skies.

SUMMER HOLS WOOHOO.

2011-11-10T03:29:00.000+08:00

It's been about a week since I've finished exams and about 4 days since I touched down in KK.

And I hope time will pass by as slowly as it can for me, cause I wanna savor every moment of this summer holiday. Since it's my very last summer holiday before I graduate huhu :(

Hope that it will be an eventful, and most importantly colorful 4 months...

LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLL BEBEH.

Oh Sweet Emancipation!

2011-11-04T02:42:00.004+08:00

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I am free.

Sem 2 2011, Year 3 Sem 1 HAS COME TO AN END AT LONG LAST. Sat for my final paper about 13 hours ago :)

You have no idea how much agony I was in. The agony of facing my battles. The agony of waiting for everything to end.

And yup. It is confirmed. Sem 2, 2011 is officially THE LONGEST semester I have ever been through. It just seemed to drag ON and ON and ON.

Though I feel like I should've exerted more effort for my exams, the past is in the past. Time to move on.

The hurricane has finally passed and I am seeing my rainbow :) I'm happy. So happy. And for lack of a better description, "I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders".

My 4-month summer holiday has officially started. Let the good times roll, bebeh.

Celebrating my emancipation

2011-11-04T02:42:00.000+08:00

After my exam today:

Had tea with Emma and Kim after not meeting them for a FREAKING LONG TIME (the last time I met them was.. during our McD outing. As documented in one of my previous posts)

Was having Emma and Kim withdrawal symptoms hahaha LOL. Oh and i'm having Brenda withdrawal symptoms too :( Miss you all so much!

Then I went out for a celebratory outing with Angela and Regina :) Regina brought us out.

OH BEFORE THAT, I got the chance to catch up with Marianne a little bit (she's Angela's housemate too, and is also one of my BFF's here haha) was happy to catch up with her, she was about to head out though so it was just for awhile hehe.

So anyway.

We went to Marina Sea Horse Bistro 2 for dinner. Such a DOPE place, haven't been there since forever. the CHICKEN WINGS THERE ARE SO FRICKIN' AMAZING AND ORGASMIC OMG I AM NOT KIDDING YOU OK.

(No pictures of food cause I didn't bring my camera and I just CANNOT post horrible looking pictures on my blog. haha)

Then we went to Mayland to proceed with a little chat and chilling session :) And I had this:

MOCHA FRAP!

Mayland's blended Mocha Frap.
It less sweeter than Starbucks'. Which is good
But texture, Starbucks wins.
But the whip cream and chocolate sauce?
Mayland wins. It tastes different. In a good way! :)

Yup. I got coffee high. Ended up laughing A LOT. So many funny things happened. Mainly because of Angela... HAHAHAHA. She pushed a door (WHICH CLEARLY SAID PULL) with so much force, and the impact was so loud it startled the guards and one of the guards said "Huii.. MABUK".

hahahahahahahahahahaa

Then I hacked Angela's Facebook and Twitter on her BlackBerry (which she just got yesterday HAHA). And that, is a whole story on its own... HAHA.

Well here I am at home. 2.35 am, and feeling SO DAMN TIRED, I spent the past 17 hours functioning on only 5 hours of sleep the night before. My back hurts. I don't even know where I have summoned the energy to write all these!

HAHA.

End.

Towards the end of the year

2011-11-01T23:31:00.002+08:00

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Bathroom thoughts

2011-10-30T23:29:00.003+08:00

I don't know about you but I think a lot when I sit on a toilet bowl. God knows how many analogies I have come up with about many things.

Life, and its trying times, is like sandpaper -- rough, coarse, abrasive, hard on you. But just like sandpaper refines all sorts of unrefined surfaces and turns these surfaces into something beautiful and smooth, our character as well, becomes more refined in these trying times.

So we all should hang on when we're having our sandpaper trials. Chances are we will emerge out of it all as someone stronger and wiser...and in the end, we would be like polished diamonds with a blinding sparkle :)

What the hell is wrong with me

2011-10-30T02:14:00.001+08:00

It is B E Y O N D depressing how most people are already done with exams. And have already gone back to their hometowns. While I am still stuck here in Miri with 3 more papers to sit for. The war has barely even started for me.

SO. MUCH. AGONY!

TRUTH: I am still not really in exam mode, and i'm still in procrastination mode. WHICH IS SO BAD BECAUSE MY FIRST PAPER IS THIS MONDAY AT 8.30 AM, I AM SO SCREWED JUST SHOOT ME NOW.

I find it highly dysfunctional how I am not doing anything to help my guilt of wasting shitloads of time + not studying at all.

TRUTH: I find it so hard to sit still and study. I get distracted so easily and my mind wanders off to so many places. SO, many places.... I am SO a.d.d when it comes to studying. I hate it.

I have un-mastered the art of being focused and studious, the last time I was that so-called A-star student was

when I was 12. Which is 9 years ago. bwahahaha.

It's basically 2am now and I am supposed to be asleep.

BUT I CAN'T SLEEP.

So screwed cause I have to wake up early for church.

I AM SO DAMN HUNGRY RIGHT NOW.

Ok so, according to my countdown timer, finals end in 4 days 13 hours and 8 mins. I can't wait.

Swear to you i'm gonna celebrate like HELL when it all this shit ends. Seriously I think this is THE LONGEST semester I've ever been through. All this pain and stress just never seems to EVER end.

(mini psychoanalysis:

i'm guessing part of the reason

why i have BARELY

been studying is cause I have

gotten so tired of

4 months worth of stress

and workload that it has

lead to a severe erosion

of self-motivation

& an almost obliterated

willpower to press on and fight.)

Well I just hope that in the next 4 days I will be in correct state of mind so that I'll be able to survive and do what I am obligated to do as a student, which is to study my ass off and give my all in writing those papers.

I realize that I've been trying to avoid the reality that I still have to fight, fight, and fight..no matter how badly bruised I already am.

But that won't get me anywhere, I know.

I gotta conquer my giants. fight my demons. face reality.

Indisposed

2011-10-18T22:29:00.001+08:00

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HELLO. DO YOU MISS ME? :D LOL

2011-10-13T23:51:00.002+08:00

Currently listening to: Fader - The Temper Trap ♫♪♫♪
"talk don't change a thing..oh it's fading fader.. words don't sink they swim.. ohhh it's a fading fader.."

It's been a sad, dreary but mostly stressful couple of weeks. It obviously has got something to do with uni work, and certain conflicts with people here and there..

but then mostly it's because of PMS (where my emotions literally become derailed..and pretty much volatile e.g getting worked up for the most unreasonable reasons i.e being pissed off because people can't get their stupid grammar straight)

PMS + STRESS is also a horrible, and foul combination, might I add.

BUT anyway, I don't want to drone on and on about my misery because I know that you couldn't care less, therefore...

I WILL TALK ABOUT WHAT I DID THIS EVENING :D --- mostly because I know that I would barely remember this 5 years from now.. it's good to document things like these ya know!

After handing in our very last group assignment for the semester and handling certain issues...

EMMA, KIM AND I

WENT TO MCDONALD'SSSSSSSSSSS..!!

YEAH BEBEH!!! MCDONALD'SSS!!!!!

(Ok. Overly excited here. I blame the PMS)

Btw, I really like how the building is painted in black.

and then there's the word 'McDonald's' there in white.

Simple and minimalistic. NICE!

Oh sweet Lord. I haven't been to/eaten at Mcdonald's in A REALLY REALLY LONG TIME. This made me so happy.. especially after not eating anything at all the whole day! and especially after having one hell of a stressful week!

"TWICE AS MIGHTY. DOUBLE QUARTER POUNDER WITH CHEESE"
My breakfast+lunch+dinner.

I've never had any double-pattied burgers ever in my life. Well Ramly Burger pernahlah tapi McD nda pernah, but it doesn't count cuz two Ramly Burger patties are equivalent to like.. ONE quarter pounder patty? HAHAHA..

Felt intimidated by all this 'double' shiz.. thinking it'll be too huge and stuff.. Also because I was afraid of being judged for eating a lot hahahaha (at least i am WOMAN enough to admit that, ok!)

I was like.. "Emma. Are you getting the double quarter pounder? Cause if you are, I am. If you're going for the normal one, then I am too" HAHAHA, practical conformity, I am such an irony.

We went for the double quarter pounder.

1 Million calories. HAHAHA.
Drooling yet? :p

It was so amazing. It was heaven. It wasn't just heaven in my mouth, it felt like my entire being was transported to heaven while i was sinking my teeth into its tender, juicy and oh-so succulent beef patties (ok that might've been a bit of an overstatement)

It was even MORE amazing because I hadn't eaten the whole friggin' day.. I could eat an entire whale.

Thank you Kim and Emma for bringing me along with you guys!!! :)

So before this post becomes too long... I shall leave you with...

a random picture of the day! :)

Took this after class when Bernadine sent us home.

Don't you just LOVE how the sun bathes the earth in its warm rays of sunlight...? :)

Talk about being vain

2011-10-03T19:08:00.009+08:00

As some of you may..or may not know.. I am a very vain person, when it comes to taking pictures of myself.

I am the type of person who is much too capable of snapping SHITLOADS of pictures, of nothing else but myself and my face. And by shitloads, I mean thousands..and thousands. (collectively and cumulatively of course) HAHAHAHA.

If there was a speed for camwhoring, I probably take like 50 pictures per minute (yes I am exaggerating).

If you see my folders you will most likely see endless thumbnails of nothing else but myself. HAHA.

However, I don't post it all up on the internet. and I very much do not have the pressing need to post huge-ass pictures of myself in every. single. blog. post. =.=" (I can't really understand that). See, I'm not that vain. hahaha.

But TODAY, I am vain enough to make a freaking animated gif of myself and post it up here. HAHAHA. Tsk tsk tsk.

Hello.

Nice meeting you. I'm Anthea. How are you doing today?

hahahahahahaha

All throughout my life, I have encountered SO MANY PEOPLE WHO THINK THAT:

1. I am 2-3 years younger than my age.

2. I am pure chinese.

IT IS SO ANNOYING. Especially the pure chinese part. UGH.

I don't know how many frickin times I encounter people who talk to me straightaway in Chinese. Countless, that's for sure.

Then it gets all awkward and i'm like "I don't speak Chinese". Then they go all "Ha?? You not Chai-niss ahr? But your face like Chai-niss lohh" Grr.. haha.

Well let me clarify things for you.

1. I am very much 21 years old (so ancient already. huhuhu. XD)

I am not 18, neither am I 19.

Yes I know I have a freaking chubby baby face.

HOWEVER, it is NOT your cue to think that I "don't know anything" and that I am "naive" and "so innocent and child-like/childish that I wouldn't hurt a fly".

2. I am very much Sino Kadazan. I am in fact, only quarter Chinese. quarter Kadazan. half Dusun.

But all in all, I am still basically an Asian with tapered eyelids and a button nose. hahahaha.

SO, to those of you who think that I am pure Chinese, I AM NOT. Make sure you burn that into your head LOL.

I'm guessing that is it for today's post. VAAAIIINNNN HAHA. I didn't attend any of my classes today which is so bad and I feel EXTREMELY guilt-stricken. I GOTTA GET MY ASS UP AND START WORKING! ARGH.

Well then.

Adios :) Have a brilliant day.

I love beautiful mornings

2011-09-27T02:35:00.002+08:00

Even though I hate waking up early, early mornings are still my most favorite time of the day. I took this picture at home in KK one beautiful morning... (after not sleeping the whole night LOL).

It was the first morning of 2011.

Beautiful mornings make me go absolutely nuts, and I feel beyond compelled to capture the essence of a beautiful morning and immortalize it. LOL.

And I know, I've uploaded this on FB as well but I just thought that I should blog about it too...

This makes me miss home.

Facebook Hoo-ha

2011-09-23T01:03:00.005+08:00

Well, as most of you obviously already know, a lot of people are displeased with the recent changes on Facebook, leading to discussions with regards to such changes, as well as expressions of dislike, and even hatred. HAHAHA.

My sister shared this article with me on Facebook, which basically mentions that there are many more changes to come...HAHA big shocker there. And she proceeded to ask "Can we really live without facebook? What do you think?"

My answer:

Well, in my opinion, I think the fundamental basis upon which we can determine whether we are able to live without a social networking site (i.e facebook, twitter, etc..) or not is heavily dependent on this factor: The social community a person is exposed to/surrounded with.

(Bear in mind that this viewpoint does not apply to those who are not users of social networking sites, as they are already living without Facebook LOL)

As to elucidate this, if most of a person's friends are on Facebook, this person would most definitely sign up for a Facebook account as well.

Other than reasons to supposedly "keep in touch" or "stalk" people's lives, this situation is largely influenced by what is termed as, a "herd mentality" which is basically CONFORMITY (ugh), where individuals are influenced by their peers to adopt certain behaviors, follow trends, etc.....especially in Asia where societies and people are typically collectivistic in nature, as opposed to western countries where people are more individualistic in nature (ok, i am starting to get off-topic now HAHAHA)

Well basically, if everyone else is still using Facebook and as long as we have friends to "keep in touch with" (or stalk), i'm pretty sure we aren't able to live without it.

I once thought I could not EVER live without Friendster, unable to even bear such thought. But look what happened when Facebook came along? The entire community literally shifted to Facebook. And Friendster was practically discarded into the bin like trash.

I'm an atelophobe

2011-09-20T14:29:00.002+08:00

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2011-09-19T18:01:00.001+08:00

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Wasting my week away

2011-09-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

I feel like I'm wasting my week away. WHICH IS SO BAD. I am completely guilt-stricken right now I feel like I should be doing something productive but I AM NOOOOTTTTTT OMG get me out of this rut!

Feels like there is something wrong. I feel restless but I don't know why. I can't pinpoint on what's causing this distress all I know is it's driving me crazy. Peace of heart and mind! Where art thou?

Random picture of the day

2011-09-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

I have to admit. There are some parts of Miri that are so gorgeous, you don't feel like you're in Malaysia.

Took this picture one fine day after a visit to the beach :)

It's Tuition Free Week

2011-09-12T23:34:00.002+08:00

I'm lying down here on this hotel's super queen size bed (which I have ALL to myself, by the way. It's freaking awesome ok haha!), typing this.............. about to share with you the reasons why I'm not going back to KK

SO.

Reasons for not going back to KK:

1. My parents are here

Like YAY :D We're staying at Imperial again, absolutely love the fact that I have my own room here. HAHA. And on the first day they came mum cooked dinner, which was absolutely splendid. They're going back tomorrow morning though and I dread it like hell :( Tapi apa buli buat... terima ja la.

More on mummy and daddy's visit later on.

2. I have work to do & I would like to stay in focus

Kunun ja la. HAHA. Well actually, yes I do have work to do, which is to distribute questionnaires for our Marketing Research group project. Such a bloody freaking pain in the ass. But i'm not sure what's going on with the project now.... this whole thing seems to be a bit of a blur....

3. I don't want to make myself depressed

Sure, going back to your hometown is certainly the most delightful thing to do especially after 2 months of torment and suffocation. HAHA. But in my case, though it is a happy thing, such happiness is only short-lived, because I always, ALWAYS get super depressed when it would be time to go back to Miri.

Like, depressed to no ends, to the extent of being incapacitated and being thrown out of focus. Yeah..totally don't want that to happen. It's my way of being kind to myself. LOL.

4. A lot of my friends are no longer in KK

Because a lot of them have already gone back to universities since I believe they've just started their new semester after their 4-month holiday. gah.

5. I do not have a boyfriend to desperately reunite with and run home to

HAHAHA. Well, I'm sure this doesn't need that much of an explanation? I can't possibly imagine having a boyfriend back home. I'd be so desperate to go back to KK every single day. hahahaha.

And that, my friends, is why i'm not going back to KK this tuition free week. Actually there are more reasons that I can list down but I think 5 is enough.

I'm not really known to be the kind of person who'd stay back in Miri especially during tuition free week. People will ALWAYS get surprised if I say I'm not going back to KK.

Oh well.

Would you understand?

2011-09-08T19:56:00.004+08:00

If you were to walk a mile in the shoes of Ms. Anthea F.P,

1. You will always seem to constantly want things that are completely out of reach.

2. You'd be very emotional in a lot of things. So emotional that you never knew emotions could feel so raw.

3. You'd be sensitive. very. sensitive.

4. You will have this longing to do things so great and big that it sounds unrealistic.

5. You'd have intense wanderlust.

6. You'd feel like you're never good enough.

7. On the exterior you probably laugh and smile a lot, but no one knows you're breaking down inside.

8. You would wish that you could for once have something that you've been yearning for so incredibly long.

9. You would always wonder how it would be like to live the life you've always wanted.

10. You'd wish to be perfect. You'd wish that all your ideals are realistic and achievable.

But you know that perfection does not exist, you don't get everything you want and that some things are just not meant to be.

Kitty whiskers

2011-09-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

Caught this little friend in the house while I was making my way to the kitchen, and as soon as it saw me it darted out of the house through the kitchen. haha penakut! But I managed to make it stay for a little while & snapped pics (dia ingat sya mau bagi dia makanan..kesian.. I didn't have food bah)

Juling oh dia kan. hahahaha. Kalo kena jaga betul2 memang cantik oh ni kucing. Putih lagi tu... eeee!

Makes me miss my cats back home so, so much. I crave pouring out love to cats. It will only be another 2 months until I'll be back in KK.... *sigh*

I don't know what to entitle this post

2011-09-02T01:08:00.002+08:00

Hi :)

Yesterday, I finally finished 'Mini Shopaholic' by Sophie Kinsella! After months since initial purchase. HAHAHA.

I bought it last semester before exams (after waiting for a year, eagerly anticipating its publishing!) and only got to finish it recently... Cause I was SO DAMN FREAKING BORED during the 2 days of Raya (I've been cooped up at home) hence I resorted to finishing this novel! (yes even though I was supposed to catch up with work..so anyway..)

It is FANTASTIC. Lovely, and heart-warming! All I can say is Sophie Kinsella WILL NEVER LET YOU DOWN. And she is sooooooooooooo damn hilarious!!! I was laughing to myself in my room, obviously looking/sounding very cuckoo. But really. I love this book! And I actually didn't want it to end.. :( haha.

Can't wait for her next installment in the Shopaholic series!

SO ANYWAY.

Today was mostly spent hanging out with the girls :) Which was indeed lovely. (I was so happy to finally get out of the bloody house hahahaha) First went to Zaty's place for Raya visiting :) Then chilled for a while talking while eating kuih raya and a variety of colorful kuih lapis Sarawak! Thanks Zaty for your hospitality :)

Then we went to town..jalan-jalan! Browsed through boutique stores, chilled at Station 1 cafe and after that went home. I tapau-ed KFC. And finally RELIEVED my craving for KFC. hahahaha. So bad but oh so good. GUILTY PLEASSSUUURREEEEE...!

So that is all :)

BTW, this is my first time blogging in the new blogger user interface. Hmmm.

Don't know what to feel about it. But I guess it needs some getting used to..

Random stuff..

2011-08-31T21:49:00.002+08:00

Ideally I should be working on my individual assignment due this coming Monday, engage in intense scholarly journal-hunting and bullshit whatever crap in 2000 words. But GUESS WHAT? I'M NOT. BWAHA.

As much as I feel guilty about wasting time I feel like i'm much too absorbed in procrastination (which is highly detrimental to my academic performance..but. oh well HAHA).

BUT INSTEAD OF DROWNING MYSELF IN SUCH MISERY, I will continue to blog, and show you pictures of stuff :) Considering it's been a while since I've posted pics here..in this on-the-brink-of-eternal-abandonment blog of mine..

TGIF

I shall firstly state one thing.

WEEK 6 WAS AN EFFIN' TERRIBLE WEEK.

Things didn't really seem to fall in the right places and almost everything was disarray.... So at the end of the week, on Friday, I really looked forward to dinner with Brenda! Cause I just wanted to de-stress.

We wanted to go to Citrus at first but there were A LOT of people, we ended up at this seafood place nearby... (which unfortunately I have forgotten the name of)

Ordered prawns... (it was very fresh, and very sweet, BTW! which is awesome cause as far as I can remember the prawns here in Miri are terrible, so this was an exception. haha) And fish..in some tom yam recipe. It was not bad. Also ordered Cangkuk Manis which was lovely!

Brenda wanted to eat crab though but they had no crab! HUHU.

And it was kinda weird for me and Brenda to eat at such a place cuz that place constituted of families, almost entirely. Awkward, really awkward.... hahahaha. But it was ok in the end :) Was the first time eating at a Seafood restaurant with a friend, cause usually it's with familiaaaaaa... hehe.

After dinner we adjourned to Starbucks and I had such a lovely time talking with Brenda! It was SO therapeutic, took my mind off all my worries and I felt much better especially after having a rough week.

Green Tea Cream in Soy Milk + chocolate chips. It was.. not the best I've ever had. but not that bad either. They didn't have whip cream! and the chocolate chips weren't chunky enough. But nda apa lah...

I ❤ Sundays

As of this current moment, if you ask me what my most favorite day of the week is

it would be Sunday.

There's just something about how beautiful the sun shines forth its rays on an early Sunday morning. I don't know why but I'm always happy on Sunday mornings.

Also because I usually get to go to church with Brenda (and Angela too, if she tags along) and have an utterly splendid Sunday breakfast and probably do some grocery shopping thereafter.

Top half of the pic: View of Curtin Villa at 7am++ from my room

Bottom half, 1st pic: My room being bright on a Sunday morning!

2nd Pic: Close up view of Laksa Sarawak

3rd pic: Our breakfast table

We had breakfast at this place called 2020, really popular, it seems. Very hard to find parking and it is ALWAYS FULL.... the queue to get dim sum is so damn long i'm not kidding you ok. hahaha.

Dim sum was so-so. The Chee Cheong Fun was awesome! :) Laksa was not nice. I've tasted much better ones. But I was hungry. So i just ate it. hahahaha.

Domesticated me

Now that Marieanne and Farasha are no longer around (they've completed their degrees) I rarely eat out or buy outside food. They are my dinner buddies actually, so we used to go out to DPS and eat dinner every night (makes me cringe so bad, can't believe I ate outside food every day!)

So now I have become very much domesticated, and I spend most of my nights and some afternoons cooking dinner/lunch at home :)

So in the picture you see chicken wings, some petai (which I cooked with dried udang, lada sula and chili padi. Gila pedas ok). And there's some sayur, I have no idea what it's called. HAHA.

And then you see a piece of chicken breast in mushroom sauce (which isn't very nice, it's from a jar of ready made sauce..but i tweaked it with adding chicken stock so it wasn't that bad hehe). Was cooked alongside asparagus and boiled potatoes...

Ever since cooking at home, I have been able to save a lot of money :)

So I shall conclude this post right now before I go on yapping about things, making this post too long to read. haha.

Selamat Hari Raya :)

Poison and wine

2011-08-28T01:55:00.003+08:00

I was never able to forget you. In all the years that went by since the moment I knew I had to let go, I found that this certain yearning in my heart... all led back to you.

I haven't met anyone who could replace you. Nobody else is able to make me feel the way you made me feel...

I thought I was done. I thought you no longer had a special place in my heart. But I am wrong. I am so wrong.
I never got closure.

I wish you knew how I felt. I wish you knew, that, aside from the bewilderment and frustration, you have always made me smile, you always gave me butterflies, you made me happy.... you really, really had my heart.

"I don't have a choice, but I still choose you. I don't love you, but I always will"

Insomnia randoms

2011-08-21T01:57:00.000+08:00

It is currently 1.45 am, I can't stop yawning, and I am required to wake up in 5 hours and 15 minutes, the latest. BUT I CANNOT SLEEP.

What the hell is wrong with me!

Currently moving into week 6 and things are literally...speeding, at the most accelerated pace. Things are starting slowly starting to get hectic. Well duh. It's week 6. hahaha. But I suppose I will be quite, just quite free after tuition free week... I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE SEMESTER TO END!

I am SO looking forward to our summer holiday =)

It would be my last summer holiday though =( After next year it will be UNEMPLOYMENT *GASP*

I can't help but think how ancient I am right now.

I'm hungry.

I just heard thunder.

I so desperately want to sleep.

I want salmon sashimi.

I miss KK.

*YAWN*

I am sorry for being such a bore. I shall end this now. And let you run along. TOODLES.

I hate conformity

2011-08-16T00:41:00.004+08:00

Conformity sickens me. It irritates me how people do things just cause everyone else is doing it. How people follow. How people try so hard to blend in. How people succumb to conformity out of the fear of being judged or being labeled as 'weird', 'strange', 'crazy', 'eccentric'.

People who follow the way other people write and talk. How suddenly everyone goes crazy over the same damn bloody thing, even if they're not personally interested in it. How everyone wants to own the same thing just cause everyone else owns that thing. How people give in to peer pressure.

How people are so un-original.

It's so irritating.

But you know what sickens me more? The fact that sometimes, I, myself, cannot help but succumb to conformity.

Don't get me wrong though, I always, always make the effort not to succumb to conformity and peer pressure, but living in a society drenched in the mentalities and notions of a typically collectivistic Asian culture, it can be hard.

I have a problem with conformity in a sense that I always care what people say about what I do, with what I am doing with my life and anything of the like.

Being a true, full-throttle non-conformist takes shitloads of guts.

If I had all the guts and courage in the world, I would want to be the odd sheep, but in a good way. I wouldn't want to blend in, I don't want to do what everyone else is doing, I wouldn't want to give a damn of what people think if I go against social norms (for good reasons), I wouldn't want to live the same predictable life everyone else is living, I would live an extraordinary life, I would take the road less traveled.

If I had all the guts and courage in the world, I would make a difference.

Reminders

2011-08-12T16:27:00.002+08:00

15 random things that I have learned in my 21 years, through what people have told me, through personal experiences and personal observances on what other people have been through. It's very cliche. Pretty sure you've heard them all before...

But it doesn't hurt to be reminded, right? :)

1. There is always going to be someone who will dislike you. No matter how 'lovable' you think you are. So there is no need to be defensive. Accept it.

2. You cannot expect everyone to validate your opinions, no matter how GREAT you THINK your opinions are.

3. There isn't a need to establish alliances (on a personal level) with people who possess toxic personalities.

4. There is always going to be someone better than you.

5. It is absolutely impossible to please everyone.

6. There is no such thing as being failure-proof.

7. Sometimes the harshest, most judgmental critic in life is yourself.

8. Human love is imperfect. Human love fails. It is one of the reasons why we keep on getting hurt by our loved ones.

Only His love is steadfast.

9. You need God and divine help. If you live life with human strength alone, you are going to crash. and burn. Seriously.

10. I am a victim of perfectionism (or should I say inflicted with an ill drive in chasing perfection) when it comes to working on things I care about. And I've learned that it can really take a toll on you. It compels you to create unrealistic expectations/goals..

and in the event that you are unable to achieve such perfection, you start to hate yourself.

and think that you will never be good enough.

11. You need money for everything. but it doesn't mean it is everything.

12. The more you try to deliberately prove yourself or your worth to the world, the more your insecurities scream out loud.

13. The deepest wounds are caused by the ones we love/care about most.

14. If you could name one thing that is the most fragile and delicate, it would be trust.

15. The world is cruel, filled with bitterness and mercilessness.
It was never meant to be a happy place. Even the bible said so.

So... buckle up.

Stuff I need to internalize & habitualize

2011-08-02T19:43:00.003+08:00

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I'm back

2011-07-23T02:27:00.000+08:00

I apologize for the absence and lack of updates, I've been preoccupied with countless things since the last time I blogged... i.e enjoying my ass off in the last 2 weeks of my mid year holiday and getting through first week of uni...

View from a spot in Bundu Tuhan Retreat Center.
Lifeline Camp 2011.
I wanna stay there forever and never go back.
It was a happy place. a wonderwall.

I was so incredibly homesick when I arrived Miri last Sunday, to the point where I felt demoralized. and immobilized in a sense that I didn't want to get out of my room & could barely get out of bed & move about cause I was so down..

I don't usually feel thaaaat homesick. Swear to you I don't. But it's probably cause I was having MASSIVE fun for 2 weeks straight, & suddenly all of that had to come to an abrupt halt whether I liked or not. Plus, I think PMS was making me feel vulnerable... cried in the airport.

But I'm okay now :)

So here it is, my freaking 7th semester here in Curtin Miri since foundation, & I am in my third year, but won't be graduating anytime soon cause I have to repeat some subjects. It's supposed to be my 2nd last semester :( But instead 3rd last. Huhu.

SPEAKING OF REPEATING SUBJECTS..

Let me talk about my results from last semester...

***

Finance (Managerial) 212

Fail

It is expected. I didn't go to tutorials and lectures for more than a month's worth. It's stupid. It's irresponsible. I don't understand why I NEVER LEARN.

I guess it's because I really hated it. & was in this phase where I was delusional & tried to avoid it. & couldn't commit to it. eee so dysfunctional man!

I'm repeating this subject this semester.

I hope I will pass this time. And also pass everything else! I can't afford to repeat any more papers!

***

Microeconomics 200

Pass

OH THANK YOU LORD SO MUCH! haha. Did you know my internal marks for the subject was only 20.5/50? I failed ALL my assessments. Participation, assignment and mid term exam. I also didn't go to tutorials and lectures for more than a month's worth for this subject. Skipped SO MANY classes.. But I still managed to pass :) Scored 30.5/50 in the final exam bebeh!

I'm happy cause I worked hard for it & self-thought myself the topics with the help of iLectures from Perth. hahaha. I walked out of the exam feeling awesome. heee. Thank you Lord for helping me! :)

Imagine if I had good internal marks? I could've scored a credit or distinction!

***

Internal Marketing 250

Distinction

All I can say is. Wow.

My jaw dropped when I saw a distinction there. I thought I was only gonna get a credit! Since the final exam WAS SO DAMN HARD omg. But i'm so thankful and happy! Internal assessments were pretty good..I think it's because I had excellent group mates. Siaunee and the gang :) hehe.

And because I made sure I did my individual assignments properly (even though a lot of it is LAST MINUTE! HAHA)

Also, Mr. Joseph is a very organized lecturer, and he knows how to get important points across, no misunderstanding, all crystal clear. Which is so awesome. And really helps in learning.

SO YEAH BEBEH! IM 250 was a bit heavy but it was cool :D

***

Marketing of Services 311

Distinction

HAHA. The 3rd year unit which I took in my 2nd year and I was so scared about it. HAHA. Sekali tinguk kacang ni. hahahaha.

MOS was beautiful. It was smooth-sailing (ok well not entirely, but mostly haha) it was like a garden with fresh flowers blooming, filling the air with its soothing fragrance, wafting floral scents.. (HAHA ok that was a bit much). Ms. Fidella is a wonderful lecturer. I love her. And MOS itself is an awesome subject. Absolutely LOVED it!

And it's a subject with assessments which largely involves talking/presenting, so for me, it wasn't that much of a problem really.. And I really loved the part where I prepared for my presentation the night before, including the research and stuff..basically went through hell, but still dapat distinction for that assessment! hahahaha.

I wasn't really expecting a distinction either, but I did hope for it, and I got it! And it has made me so happy :)

Thank you Abba Father :)

♪♫♪♫♪ ♪♫♪♫♪

Well, if you ask me, I wasn't aiming to get any distinctions at all, I was only aiming to pass everything since I still have this problem with failing.

I used to think distinctions were for the super hardworking and committed, I pretty much lived through the start of my degree up till recently thinking that I will never get distinctions for anything knowing how TOUGH things are, especially with my failing and borderline-pass problems! hahaha.

But I proved myself wrong, and scored 2 freaking distinctions in one go! That's just crazy for a not very studious student. If you ask me. hahahaha.

If there is one thing I learned about doing well in subjects, it is.. don't think too much, do what you have to do, and do it well. Cause you see for IM and MOS, I didn't think too much about it. I didn't think about how the whole subject would be so hard or if it is such a drag.

I just went through all of it, attended all lectures & tutorials, taking one assessment at a time, and putting my heart into it (even thought at the last minute hahaha)... & I didn't worry much..

I just did what I had to do :) I guess also, the fundamental basis of all this is my developed interest in Marketing (and how Marketing just works better for me compared to Finance)

So I plan to apply the same principles in Finance. Hopefully it'll work. And I really need to work on being committed in Finance as I am in Marketing, and learn to take things one day a time.

And the most important thing...

Don't think. Just do it.

Past midnight randoms

2011-07-05T02:23:00.004+08:00

I still haven't satisfied my craving for a quarter pounder.

SEMESTER RESULTS: Releasing in approximately 24 hours +. I'm pretty sure you know how that feels like..... !!!!!!!!!!

I wish time would perhaps tick a little slower.

I should be asleep.

My hair wreaks of pungent-smelling hair dye.

I only have less than 2 weeks left in KK and it depresses me to no ends. to no ends. Getting so sick of things in Miri.

I haven't really forgiven myself for the time and money wasted for the subjects I didn't get through at first try i.e FAILED. It honestly feels that an extra semester is just a stinging reminder that i've been a disappointment not only to my dad.. but to myself.

I suppose I've been much too stuck in the notion that it is not ok to make mistakes. it is not ok to not do good enough. it is not ok to fail. Which obviously is ridiculous, egotistical and unreal.

The years in my childhood were my glory years. I did well in school. Used to score perfect 100's in math during Standard 1. Deteriorated a bit from standard 2-5, but soared back up...Standard 6, never scored below a B for every exam and mock UPSR exam. First class for 6 years straight, top 5 every exam. No.1 scorer in English for 6 consecutive years, every exam. Scored almost straight A's in UPSR (1 B). Got involved in many competitions; reading, story-telling, coloring, etc.. won quite a number.

My parents and many teachers had high hopes for me, believed in my potential, and most importantly believed in me.

Aside from that, I also did well in music school, and my teacher said that I was top student.

It was an awesome 6 years in primary school.

I was invincible.

I am not saying all these to brag or show off, but I am saying all these to prove a point.

That empire of mine came crashing down when I got to secondary school. I deteriorated. I became mediocre. Everything from then on was a downward spiral. PMR and SPM results are like trash. I wasn't happy with myself, cause I knew I could do better.

I know my potential.

But the internet, along with other things, ruined me (that, however, is a different story).

Up to this day, I've never been able to rise up and be on par with my previous glory days.

I grew up doing so well that it has shaped me into thinking that disappointment and disappointing my family is unacceptable.

And because of all that as well, it is difficult for me to accept failure, and I can't accept mediocrity.

Looking at the situation of my life right now, especially with my studies in tertiary education, I really can't help but feel so disappointed in myself. I know I can do better. Even though I hate what I do so much.

It's just that there are so many things that are holding me back, like i've said before, It feels like each step forward that I take, a stronger force pulls me back.

I guess all these is supposed to be a lesson of humility. Perhaps it's time that I tried forgiving myself despite currently being unable to find a reason why I should.

But I know I have to.

It's much too heavy of a burden to carry.

As Bill Gates once said,

"Success is a lousy teacher. It seduces smart people into thinking they can't lose"

Well I just wish someone would've told me as a kid that everyone flops at some point in their lives, regardless of whether you're a natural winner or a natural underdog..

There is no such thing as being failure-proof. I grew up thinking I was.

I had to learn the hard way.

It's been a while...

2011-07-03T01:12:00.000+08:00

I haven't truly blogged in almost a month..and well..I blame twitter for that. Cause that's where I literally trash all my feelings and all that's happening... LOL, trash.

I'm back in KK! Obviously as you may have already known. Lots of things happened since I came back. Some of which include me getting terribly sick, (to the point of being bedridden for a whole day, LOL) only within 2 days after touching down in KK, taking a whole week to recover. Sad...

Other than that, attended a funeral. Friend's dad's.

Then along with my two bestest guy friends, we went karaoke-ing. It was the BEST karaoke session ever in my entire life thus far. Probably cause I totally let go, didn't care if I was sumbang or what LOL. It was perfect :)

And a lot of other things, you'd know if you follow me on twitter LOL.

Anyways...

Today I FINALLY watched MONTE CARLO!!!!

I.HAVE.BEEN.WAITING.SINCE.FOREVER.

Well actually only since last year. hahaha.

I ❤ SELENA GOMEZ

She's the main reason why I wanna watch it.

LOL

Well honestly the movie was so-so, but it's ok, cause the fact that the movie had freaking Selena Gomez, Leighton Meester and Cory Monteith in it made it so awesome.

Speaking of movies, I've been watching shitloads of movies lately. On my laptop, that is. OH I haven't mentioned about Green Lantern on this blog yet, have I? OMG Green Lantern was fantastic, I watched it twice! Ryan Reynolds is beyond sexy!

Also, wanted to watch Transformers 3 but all shows were full. Even tomorrow's. LIKE WTF why is everyone so crazy about Transformers lah??? haha!

Ok before I continue to bore you endlessly with these unending rambles of mine I shall stop, and leave you with a picture of a McDonald's Quarter Pounder burger because I can, and because

I AM SO TOTALLY CRAVING FOR IT RIGHT NOW.

And with that, goodnight.

hey ho hey

2011-06-27T02:22:00.000+08:00

This is the definition of my sleeping habits. It happens to me almost all the time.

almost.

ALL. THE. TIME

& i hate it.

(source: leilockheart)

HELLO WORLD!

2011-06-05T21:37:00.004+08:00

I AM SUPPOSED TO BE STUDYING

RIGHT NOW, HA, HA, HA,

But guess what? I'm not. ha! Bet you didn't see that one coming! Bet you didn't hear that story before! HAHA (sot liao)

No worries, I'm actually gonna get off pretty soon and study, just wanna blog a bit.

1. I have not finished revising ALL chapters.
2. Having internal marks that are too high is making me act this way (too laid back and chillaxed HAHA)

3. I attended an 8am mass in Lutong with Brenda and Angela today! And we had an awesome Sunday breakfast together talking about a lot of things over breakfast! And it's crazy, a convo that started on food-tasting actually lead to talking about life with your partner after marriage XD

4. I just found out that Barney Stinson from How I Met Your Mother is gay in real life! and is married! with twins! I NEVER KNEW OMG #ketinggalanzaman

5. I WANT TO OPEN A NANDO'S FRANCHISE IN KK!

I MAD LOVE Nando's ok. And it kills me that KK doesn't have one.

I wonder why it hasn't hit KK yet? I'm sure someone must've thought about opening it right? Maybe they tried but didn't manage to? Not enough financial resources and connections maybe?

Well, I know starting a franchise is no joke, you have to go through so many things and invest in SO MUCH money, and it's always damn risky ok.

And even though starting a franchise (and I absolutely don't know how, don't even know where to start, in freaking Kota Kinabalu Sabah) may seem so extremely far-fetched, but I would seriously take this into consideration.

KK still doesn't have a lot of things, and i'm tired of being those people complaining "when is this gonna open, when is that gonna open..why KL got KK don't have" yadda yadda yadda.. So why not just start one yourself?

I am, after all, a business major :)

12 hours

2011-06-04T01:55:00.046+08:00

Farasha and I took the 9.50am bus (which was not punctual, as usual) to town today, with the primary intention of studying at Starbucks. Well, only me of course, cause Farasha being a Mass Comm student, doesn't have final exams. LIKE WHAAA. Yeah. I know.

Reached town at around 10.30 am + and had a (terribly expensive) breakfast at Starbucks.

Starbucks chicken & mushroom pie. Not the best.

But palatable enough I suppose.

SO, I started studying. It was a rough & slow start though cause I don't know why it was so hard to get in da' zone yo.

Later in the afternoon I ordered a green tea frap :) [My super favorite frap in the whole entire universe, totally replaced Java Chip Light hahaha]

Grande sized Green Tea Cream minus whip cream.

Which is cheaper than a Tall sized Green Tea Cream + whip cream + chocolate chip.

oh yeah.

THEY FREAKING' RAN OUT OF CHOCO CHIPS TODAY! D:

I was so sad.

Anyways, carried on with my study session. Studied a long-ass chapter on product modification in overseas markets. Oh yeah. I only managed to study + make notes on 1 and a quarter chapters today. hahahahaha.

Sad progress. But better than nothing.

It also led me to realize that the 6 chapters we are required to study for this Monday's International Marketing paper is that... 6 chapters may sound little BUT IT SO FREAKING NOT OMG it will take you AGES to thoroughly digest, read EVERYTHING and properly study a single chapter + write your own notes.

Explains my slow progress. HAHA.

SO ANYWAY.

At around 3.30 pm+ Farasha and I proceeded to Station One (it's a new place, opened not too long ago!) to have late lunch.

The menu

Farasha's Iced Lemon Tea

Tried to take a pic of my Iced Peach Tea but the shape of the glass made

itself look totally retarded when I took a picture of it,

so I shall just show you the ice. HAHA.

Farasha and I ordered nachos for our appetizer.

It was not bad. Nacho chips were a bit greasy though.

And I still think Siamese Secrets' nachos is the best!

I ordered the chicken chop.

It was prettyawesome!

So much better than DPS food hahahaha.

It would've been perfect if it was not too greasy

and if it was piping hot. haha.

After Station One, Farasha and I proceeded to COFFEE BEAN to continue my study sesh. Cause Farasha wanted internet and the internet at Starbucks wasn't working.

Started studying. But after about half-an-hour I got so tired I couldn't study. I really wanted to continue but the more I went on, the more I felt like I wanted to throw up. Sot betul ni. HAHA.

Had a headache and my back was starting to ache from being so tired, so I stopped studying and talked to Farasha and watch her Facebook-ing+play My Shops. hahahaha.

OH BTW, if you read my tweets, you would know that I haven't logged into Facebook for almost 24 hours now! Yes, deliberately. It's so refreshing.

ANYWAYS.

Around 7.15pm we had dinner at McDonald's! And I got a green can glass! :D

*sigh* McDonald's.

It's freaking suicide.

You see, I don't usually practice calorie-counting in my diet, I swear, I just gobble everything up...though I still do think about how much calories a food may have (influenced by mom HAHA) but I STILL proceed on eating it anyway hahahaha XD

But I know when too much is literally too much, and sometimes, McDonald's is too much, especially when you've had a chicken pie, greasy chicken chop, greasy nachos and green tea cream and peach tea earlier on. One large McValue meal + sundae is over a thousand calories.

Finished my burger (oh goodness how can you NOT resist quarter pounder goodness!)
But i didn't finish my fries (almost though, hahahaha XD), coke and ice cream sundae even though I really, REALLY wanted to :(

AFTER DINNER,

Farasha and I went to Watson's, cause i needed to buy conditioner. And I can never leave Watson's without buying something ELSE. HAHA. Ish I hate myself lah. But I really really love skincare products!! OMGGG.

So I bought conditioner, AND BODY BUTTER! :D

Pomegranate and Ginger body butter by Watson's

"Feed your skin with the goodness of fruits and herbs"

OOH~ LA LA~

Body butter goodness.

Tried it just now.

and I have to say that it is..

FANTASTIC!

You see the skin on my legs (knee-down) tend to be dry and kinda scaly (FYI, before you go all EWWWW, the scaliness is mild & subtle, only visible when you look super closely, ) It's been like that since..... time immemorial.

Realized that I've never actually cared for it, and I actually have to.. since my genetic makeup (unfortunately) does not bless me with naturally FLAWLESSLY PERFECT skin on my legs (as opposed to some girls & certain people I know hahaha)

Well it totally made the skin on my legs SOFT, SMOOTH & HYDRATED.

I freaking bloody recommend it.

Used a mask too since I noticed my skin was starting to flake off.

It was so-so, not fantastic. I've tried better ones.

It did hydrate my skin though. Hehe.

face after facial mask.

(By the way for the record, I have combination skin: an oily t-zone and occasionally dry, usually normal skin on my cheeks. I will talk solely on Skincare later on in the future. Hopefully.. hahaha)

SO after all that, Farasha and I went home. And we reached home at almost 10pm, so we were out for 12 freaking hours. I'm tired AS HELL, I don't even know how I'm able to do this post right now. HAHA.

Well I thank God for everything today.

All in all... it was a nice day :)

It's time to study

2011-06-01T00:09:00.011+08:00

I have completely derailed in my attempt at getting my study mojo on.

*insertdramaticsobbinghere*

I went out to Boulevard with Farasha today, with the SOLE reason to grocery shop (to stock up for study week) but somewhere along the way we ended up at the arcade in Boulevard playing arcade games.

....

............

..................................

It was TOTALLY NOT included in the initial plan, BUT I HAD SO MUCH FUN. Even got to sing in a kbox! (Although that frickin' kbox was so dirty and the mics were barely working, and the sound system was so terrible and that it had only malay/indonesian songs) it was still fun...

I was actually amazed that such a beat-up run,-down looking, FILTHY-even-a-rat-could-die-in-there kbox was even WORKING.. and even had my favorite malay song, ITU KAMU by ESTRANGED ;) and fav indonesian song Akhir Rasa Ini by Samsons :)

There was this new arcade game, "Silent Hill", you know, with guns and all..and you shoot at the screen. Shooting zombies all the way. OMG so fun! But of course that signature siren in Silent Hill.. was so scary. hahahha.

And the dudes at the counter who were in charge of the exchange of tokens were sooooo.. getek. HAHA.

One of them was indian, and he was sooooooooooooo interested in Farasha, he DESPERATELY asked me whether she was Tamil or not, since he's Tamil. HAHAHA it was hilarious... I said I didn't know (but I actually I do know wakakak XD), then he was like "tolong tanya dia untuk saya, tolongg" hahaha! He's from Penang..apparently XD And Farasha was freaked out by him hahahaha even I was too! XD

And then the other guy, matai..sempat lagi kunun ambik kesempatan..He asked me, "Kamu dari mana? Orang sini ka?" hahaha... then he was like.."saya dari Johor.. kau cute :)" HAHA!

Funny.

Earlier on Farasha and I went to Hong Kong: Food & Tea for super late brunch (at 4pm hahah)

I had this drink. Wasn't that nice.

Iced Lemon Tea

This is Farasha's! It's called Purple Rain. I totally dig the color & texture!

But I don't quite fancy the taste of this drink either hahahaha

and isn't it supposed to be purple??

FOOD THERE SUCKS (therefore won't post a pic of what I had) But the wantan pork dumplings were awesome! (But still doesn't beat authentic chinese pork dumplings..oh gosh *drool. & it was slightly burnt anyway )

Grocery shopped like crazy, and TOTALLY went overboard with my budget..and bought SO MUCH STUFF I'm starting to get worried now cause I leave Miri in like 3 weeks, how to finish all of it??? HAHA.

bought stuff at Watson's again and another 28 bucks burned. HAIH. But I can't resist...!

Bought SHAMPOO bah, i'm running out edi. And hair treatment cause my hair is so dry.

And yes bought a mask. I now have a total of 6 masks which I haven't used, and I have used so many different types of masks and other skincare products before this in the span of a few months, I NEED TO DO A REVIEW!!!!! But I don't have time, sorry. It's time consuming bah..

ANYWAYS, turned 21 last Sunday and I had such an amazing day! :) And I can't believe I'm already in my 20's................ I suppose I'll talk about it soon..maybe, I don't know. We'll see. HEHE.

My first paper is International Marketing which is next week, and like i've tweeted I only need 4.7% to pass that so i'm like.. chiiilllllllllllll.. HAHA. Papers which i'm totally worried about do not start in another 12 days.. But I do need to act on it soon (well actually NOW) cause I'm totally, totally screwed for those papers.

LORD PLEASE HELP ME TO GET MY STUDY MOJO ON!

Documenting a normal and boring...

2011-05-28T02:48:00.000+08:00

...day, because i can.

I was supposed to attend this sem's final lecture for Finance this morning, it was at 8am but I freaking overslept and only woke up 45 minutes after the class started. I totally did not mean for it to happen, I really did intend on going :( And I felt like crap because of that.

Slept back till noon cause I was honestly so tired. I think it's because of the MOS case study test the day before. Stayed up late, last-minute cramming for that hahaha.

Proceeded with online activities. Really should cut down on that.

Checked assessment results for MOS and internal marks for IM. All good. I'm happy about it. Especially with my MOS case study assignment + presentation, even though I did it super last minute, like only the night before, I still managed to get a distinction hahahaha but it was 1.2 marks away from high distinction :( So close yet so far!!! urrgghh. But it's ok. I've passed the whole subject already :)

All Glory goes to God !

Now all I have to worry about is Finance and Micreconomics. Which I'm screwed for.

Fast forward >>>

Had dinner with Farasha at Usmania DPS and had very nice Paratha and the most amazing Chicken Tandoori EVER. So succulent & bursting with flavor omgggg. Damn worth your 5 bucks ok. Mahal lah. But chicken tandoori bai tu. haha.

Usmania rocks! With their authentic indian/pakistani food :) It was therapeutic too, hanging out with Farasha. Being cooped up in my room the whole day depresses me to no ends.

Sorry gambar bida. Took it with my phone. THIS CHICKEN IS AWESOMEEEEE.

Had Magnum Almond ice cream after that and it tasted so damn good. I never knew it tasted that good despite having tried it before. Maybe there's just something wrong with my taste buds tonight. Food tastes extra delicious tonight?? haha.

Went home and spent the whole night working on my very last Finance assessment. I've completed it. But I can still continue cause I have a few more attempts left for the ones I got wrong. But I was too tired. Decided to put it off. HAHA.

Got offended and annoyed so many times today, just cause of what people say on facebook and twitter. Mood spoiler much, I think I need to do something to myself, and really unplug myself from the virtual world.

I am still annoyed at those people who pissed me off on facebook and twitter though. Pretty sure they have no idea. But oh well. haha!

I guess I shall go to sleep now, it's almost 3am. Gotta sleep early and recharge!

Cause tomorrow I'm gonna indulge in retail therapy. Yezza.

Nights.

5, 4, 3, 2, 1.

2011-05-22T00:16:00.020+08:00

It's that time of the semester again.

Where I create countdown timers. HEHE :) I've put my KK countdown on the sidebar cause it means the most.. but for now..here are my other countdowns :D

Like, OMG ='(

I TOTALLY can't wait for this:

Dear Lord Jesus.. please grant me the patience & strength.. to fight..

and to make it through.

I HATE SNOW PEAS

2011-05-21T02:06:00.000+08:00

In case you're wondering what snow peas are, it is this thing... below.

Not to be mistaken for green soy beans,

although they look like identical twins.

I have started cooking this semester. HAHA. And it's already week 11. or is it week 12? Whatever, it is already the end of the sem.

And i'm only cooking now. like WHAT.

Well technically I have not really cooked, I just utilized my steamer & rice cooker haha.

So I steamed snow peas for brunch this afternoon. It was, ok. But now I just think it is SO FREAKING DISGUSTING OMG, even peria and petai is not that bad. to me. HAHA.

Maybe it's the way i cooked it. Yeah i think it is.

ANYWAY.

I AM FREE OF ASSIGNMENTS!

FINALLY!

Well except for 1 more online Finance assignment but that doesn't count cause it doesn't involve shitloads of writing and referencing and it's only 5%. haha.

THE PAST WEEK HAS BEEN BRUTAL.

Seriously.

And like I have tweeted,

it was like being thrown into a fiery furnace of fire,

and being left there to incinerate in pure..concentrated torment.

Dramatic gif. I know.

hahahaha.

2 major assignments were due, and the worst was MOS cause it was an assignment + presentation. I would have done it earlier but I had a freaking group assignment due the day before that.

It was super hectic.

I think I would've really enjoyed doing MOS assignment, it was a fun case study. To me. I guess. (CASE STUDY WAS ABOUT GUINNESS BEER :P) HAHA.

And I would have done so much better in my presentation, if I had enough sleep and had more time to prepare. But I still received positive feedback, despite how it looked as if I didn't know what I was talking about. SO YAY THANK YOU JESUS :D

And then Farasha and I went to Fratini's to celebrate. Well it was totally spontaneous, we didn't plan anything. HAHA. Initially we just wanted to withdraw money from the ATM. We ended up in a mini celebration haha!

Then I did grocery shopping. I was so happy. Grocery shopping makes me happy. Because it reminds me of mummy and daddy :)

It is 1.54 am and it is WAY past my bed time. Not like I have a regular bed time, but I slept at 9.30 pm last night cause I was so pooped due to the 48 hours of brutal torture. hahahaha.

AND I AM SO HUNGRY OMG. And i feel puking too. Don't know why. Must be because of the snow peas.

Should most probably go to bed now.

GOODNIGHT.

Hell hath no fury...

2011-05-16T01:53:00.004+08:00

...like a woman in PMS. which is worse than a woman scorned. LOL.

I really do feel like screaming and vandalizing things in fury.

haha.

I miss my cats very much :'( I wanna cry.

click on it for full view! :D clickity click it! LOL

As you may have (or have not) noticed, I always seem to rant aimlessly and mindlessly whenever I am PMS-ing....it annoys you? Well IT KEEPS ME SANE.

I am very tired right now. Even though I had a freaking 3 hour ++ nap I am still tired. That is what PMS does to me.... (well actually it does a lot of things to me)

And since I have a very low tolerance level during PMS, I got super frustrated when I was doing my online finance assignment (cause if you know me, you know that I super hate finance)

and I actually cried. while flipping through my finance textbook. first time ever. LOL.

Study week is in 2 weeks and final exams are in 3 weeks.

Things are not good. Things are not going well.

And I know you people who think you're so noble and moral and righteous would judge me for stating the very next sentence and may regard myself to be ungrateful and unappreciative with an attitude problem but I don't care; Honestly, I hate my life.

I shall now conclude with an excerpt of a song by Jennifer Love Hewitt & it was quite a big hit before.

I LOVE her, btw. Always have, since I was in primary school. I think she's uh-may-zing and multi-talented.

And I only started to realize how meaningful the lyrics were (and how it 100% describes how I feel about my life right now) when I listened to it while walking home last friday evening after sending in a last-minute assignment that made me feel like utter useless hopeless crap.

"And I know it's hard to hold it inside. It's days like these I run and hide when I feel barenaked.

And I just can't take it.

I'm getting jaded no I just can't fake it anymore,

cause i'm barenaked..

and i know, life's what you make it..

Wish I could float away, to some other day"

Dates

2011-05-09T22:23:00.001+08:00

As I have tweeted..

My monthly planner is seriously the most depressing thing to look at right now.

10th May - International Marketing Current Issue Report due (3%)

- Ifest (International Festival)

13th May - Microeconomics Assignment Option 2 due (20%)

[Requires studying 3 chapters of the text (which is A LOT) - have not done so]

[Maximum 1500 words with references]

14th May - Attending Borneo Jazz Festival

15th May - Online Finance Assignment on Aplia due (5%)

18th May - International Marketing Feasibility Study due (25%)

[Group Assessment - Have not started]

[Requires 25 pages, and shitloads of references]

20th May - Marketing of Services Case Study Discussion/Leadership (25%)

[Presentation, basically. Yes It's individual]

[Requires answering 3 questions in a total of 1500 words
with journal references]

[Required to present 1 question for 10 minutes]

26th May - Marketing of Services Individual Case Study Test (25%)

29th May - Online Finance Assignment on Aplia due (5%)

How the hell do i keep up and do all that while attending all classes and doing all tutorial exercises as well?

I wanna cry.

Help.

A little something I want to say

2011-05-09T00:10:00.004+08:00

Be judgmental, and no one would want you to be their confidant. People won't open up to you, and you're the last person anyone would pick to share secrets or deep, very personal stuff with.
or even worse.. they won't approach you. at all.

It is so easy for us to say or think how a person should ideally be. what a person should ideally do. how a person should ideally feel. in any given circumstance, especially in times of trial, and in any case where doubt, fear or worry is expressed.

It is so easy to judge a person's actions, a person's reaction to displeasure and problems, but the truth is we never really what a person is truly feeling in their hearts, or what's really going on their heads. We don't know how hard it may be for a person, we don't know the real journey a person has traversed in their life that has made them who they are and why they react/respond a certain way to things. They are the ones with the issue, and not you. So, easy for you to say.

You may think the problems some people go through are puny, or ridiculous to get upset/worried about or even invalid in comparison to larger and more severe problems other people are facing in the world, but are we really in a position to judge that? Like I said we don't know for sure what a person is really going through, deep-rooted issues that have never been expressed even to a single soul, a series of resentments, trauma and fear compounded over so many years...

things really aren't that simple.

like it or not.

Unless we've experienced very similar things. And this leads to the aspect of being understanding.

Most people just know what a person is going through, but does not understand what a person is going through. A person who knows, may know what the problem is about in and out, but a person who knows, may not necessarily understand. A person who understands, not only knows, but feels exactly what a person is going through. and does not judge, and literally embodies what the other person is feeling.

So my point here is, we shall all try to be a little bit more sympathetic towards people. It really isn't necessary to give so-called 'advice' that only comes across as domineering, obnoxious, INSENSITIVE, judgmental, as if you know everything. as if you know what it really feels for a person.

Because a person who understands, is never domineering, is never obnoxious, is never insensitive, is never judgmental.

And i'm definitely learning myself to be more understanding and sympathetic.

So the bottomline here is, be a little more receptive and intuitive, and statements like "Why are you so upset over such issue, just get over it" are so easily uttered with the tongue, but you know things aren't mechanical or theoretical cause it involves the human heart, and we all know the human heart is a very complicated thing.

And one thing is for sure, if you don't have anything nice to say, then just shut the hell up.

The cliche "words + pictures" blog post

2011-05-02T00:22:00.002+08:00

Despite the fact that I actually have an INFINITE BACKLOG of things to do and deadlines to meet in probably a zero amount of time as result of a sick case of procrastination (yes, that was a deliberate overstatement) I've decided to share this with you :)

Since I won't be around in KK to celebrate my birthday this month, my family and I decided to celebrate it last night, which was approximately 28-29 days earlier than my actual birth date. LOL.

And for what seemed to be a prolonged period of time of indecisiveness prior to the celebration, I finally decided that I wanted to do my PRE-birthday dinner in Tanjung Aru Beach Resort :)

And I TOTALLY felt bad after that. The place was damn swanky. And would not only burn a hole in your pocket, but would actually burn your entire pocket. wallet. purse. whatever. HAHA.

But daddy said it's okay..it was my 21st :) But I still feel bad.

SO PICTURES..

We went to TATU cafe.

I'm not sure what this selection was about... Cuz I didn't try it. hahaha.

But these were actually raw ingredients you could pick to be cooked in your dish.

A selection of salads :)

A few stuff that I took :)

Because the buffet was so incredibly expensive (MYR100+ per head ZOMG),

Mum decided to go ala carte and ordered a burger.

Bro-in-law ordered steak :)

Sauces that came with mum's burger. It was good.

The sweet chilli sauce is awesome for keropok lekor.

And when I told my sis that, she said

"Ew..that reminds me of my pitiful ---"

"...student life?" I finished her sentence for her.

"Yes"

HAHAHA.

I didn't know keropok lekor symbolizes THE pitiful student life?

I thought maggi cup does. hahaha

DESSERT!

They had a fondue thingie at the desert section, like a mini CHOCOLATE FOUNTAIN..

And all you have to do is get the marshmallow sticks and coat your marshmallow with chocolate from the fondue of everflowing chocolate.

It was crazy awesome sedap. BUT SO FATTENING. But oh so good.

I only had one stick cause it felt THAT fattening hahaha.

You see that tart thingie on the plate? Yeah that was awesome too.

By my 2nd plate of food I was actually already so damn full, I was quite sad that I didn't thoroughly make most of the buffet, but it's ok lah.

The food is definitely better than Le Meredien's buffet. Le Meredien punya makanan sucks when compared to STAR's. hahahaha.

Birthday Pressie from my sister :)

I totally love the wrapping!

And I love how the ribbon sparkled under the light. Can't really see it in the picture though.

Daddy and Bro-in-law

Daddy and Sis:)

Daddy and mummy! :D

Sis and bro-in-law :)

After dinner mum suggested that we adjourn to Tanjung Aru First Beach to blow my cake. And so we did...we went to First Beach Cafe (And it totally reminded me of the days where I studied for my supp exam. Cause that's where I studied most of the time hahaha)

We literally hung out on the sea shore. With chairs and tables lah hahaha. On the sand. Under the stars. With the sound of waves. It was nice :)

Birthday cake :) SR's Chocolate Indulgence.

I totally dig the handwriting! or hand creamwriting.. whatever you call it hahaha

Wishing that I will meet Justin Bieber one day.

Or that he will follow/tweet/retweet my tweet on twitter.

HAHAH kidding.

Blowwwwww

Wish mummy was in this pic :(

Was sippin' Bailey's! I think it's the only sort of alcohol I can drink in front of my parents haha.

I know it looks like teh c ping but I swear to you it's Bailey's. hahaha.

As to what was in the present box my sister gave me..it was.. this!

I like it!!

Though I think I won't be able to use it all the time..

Cause perfume at the end of a long day always smells like crap. eww. HAHA

THANK YOU SISSS!!! :D :D

So saya mau promote sikit.. check out the commercial for this perfume!

It's very Paris-ish.. And oh so dreamy, and blissful..I feel like going there!!

Natalie Portman yo!

Nice commercial :) Natalie is freaking gorgeous in there.

Oh and besides that dad bought me a new digital camera for my birthday :) THANK YOU DADDDYYY :D

I am guessing that is all for this post... Currently still in KK but going back to Miri like, tomorrow. I'm sad.. And my studies are a bit rocky right now. Need to do something about it.

Bah orait, itu seja untuk kali ini. Thanks for reading! :D

You can kiss my ass goodbye WEEK 7

2011-04-15T21:17:00.001+08:00

I can't believe I survived this week.

AND IT HAS ENDED! Well not technically but you get what I mean.

I have been dreading this week, which is WEEK NUMBER 7, ever since I filled out my monthly schedule weeks back. 3 midterms in one week, each weighing 20%, 25% and 30%. Gila ok.

I have to say both my midterms for Finance and Microeconomics today were complete, utter bollocks. It was super.. tough..
I don't want to think, or even worry about it. Yet. So now i'm just gonna rejoice that it's all over :D

And I seriously don't know how I survived through today, with a paper at 8am and 2pm, and with only 3 hours of sleep the night before... Totally zombifyed yo! By the time I got home the first thing I did was hit my bed. And napped for a while. LOL

Was in a bad mood too.. due to how things were not right and how I was totally sleep-deprived. HAHA! The week didn't really end well. At first.

BUT THE RAINBOW ME AND MARIEANNE SAW ON THE WAY HOME TOTALLY COMPENSATED!

It's amazing because at first we only saw a quarter of the rainbow, and it was REALLY vague.

And it was actually FORMING.

So we SAW a whole full-arched double rainbow form right in front of our eyes.

I was totally mesmerized. LIKE, I couldn't do anything else. But just stare. And take pictures. HEHE.

Well I could only take, like, a part of the rainbow. My phone is definitely not capable of taking a full-arched rainbow -.- haha.

I love rainbows. And rainbows have always, ALWAYS been a way for God to tell me that everything will be okay...And i'm speaking based on experience :) So I ALWAYS, ALWAYS GET EXCITED WHEN I SEE A RAINBOW. ALWAYS. As if i'm seeing it for the first time. haha.

ANYWAY, I apologize for the lack of competency in my language today, I seriously overworked my brain today and I can barely get my words and spelling right -.- Gonna sleep early tonight! (Hopefully)

And that is all. TOODLES!

SAW THIS ON TUMBLR and I HAD to blog it

2011-04-14T20:07:00.000+08:00

(image source)

Late night rambling

2011-04-08T03:07:00.002+08:00

I am so gonna regret doing this blog post right now, at 2.33 am, when I am supposed to be asleep so I would be able to wake up for my 8 am class tomorrow. FINANCE LAGI TUUU OH GOSH.

I CANNOT SLEEP....

SO, things are kinda.. I don't know. Things are getting busier that is fo' sho'. 3 midterms next week and an essay due, and an assignment due the week after, then it's free week! and I have a group debate coming up after free week and we have to get everything settled before the free week starts cause our debate is on the first day uni resumes. OMG, sya takuuuuut!

Oh it seems that an earthquake has hit Japan again, with a 7.1 magnitude, (not 7.4, ok). WELL. Like I have tweeted... Japan, afterall, sits on one of the most seismically-active locations in the world, on the ring of fire some more. SO, earthquakes ARE BOUND to happen, and are actually very common. Therefore the Japanese have built earthquake-proof buildings to combat such phenomenon. Which is why in some videos i've watched, some of the Japanese chill seja during earthquake ni.. and i'm like wtf -.- HAHAHA

So if someone talks about Japan being hit by another earthquake, i'd say.. DUH. It's sitting on the freaking Pacific Ring of Fire. Obviously. You think earthquakes in Japan are just a once-in-a-blue-moon thing?

However, what we should worry about instead is about Tsunamis. I don't think the Japanese thought of building Tsunami-proof buildings when they built earthquake-proof buildings... So yes, it is when Tsunamis hit Japan again that WE SHOULD FREAK OUT.

Cause it is far more detrimental and life-threatening.

A Tsunami warning has been issued, but has currently been lifted, so phew. but then we should still keep Japan in our prayers :) God have mercy on Japan! And the rest of the world as well.

I believe my late night rambling will stop here. Hopefully I will be able to wake up later! HAIH. More sleep deficit.. I'm gonna have a hard time functioning properly tomorrow. hahahaha.

Toodles.

This is such a beautiful song ❤

2011-04-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

Reminds me of the epic Planetshakers conference we attended in 2005.

Best times of my life, and one of my best spiritual experiences, hands down.

So desperately want to attend another PS conference :(

The hope of all hearts is You..
Your love never fails ❤

Hey April

2011-04-03T23:39:00.000+08:00

Barely felt March come to pass. It's April already! Scares me but i'm pleased with it at the same time cause I know that the end of this semester is drawing nearer day by day :D Moving into week 6 now, and it kinda freaks me out how incredibly fast paced things are, it's kinda hard to catch up....

ANYWAYS, I had an interesting weekend, had a girls night out at this grand opening of a new dance club..called 'Virgin Ears' (though I have to say there was nothing so 'grand' about it) and OMG, i'm so sorry to say this but that name is just full on LAME. Virgin ears? As in ears that still have their virginity? Is that even supposed to mean something? HAHAHA.

There was this drag queen who did this... I don't know, some sort of lip-syncing + dancing performance... something like BURLESQUE. Yeah that's him in the picture hahaha. He kind of reminds me of that Singaporean stand-up comedian, Kumar (Have not heard of him? Check out a video of him here, it is super hilarious I tell you, YOU WILL LAUGH. provided you're liberal enough of course)

Tequila shots were only RM 8 !!!!!!! It's cheap compared to other places... And it's Camino some more. So I had 2. And had 1 free cause some dude we didn't know bought us drinks. HAHAHA twas sweet + awesome! Had JD coke as well and a can of beer before we reached the place. And ya.. got drunk. hahahaha. Danced like crazzzyyyyyyy.... with random people lagi tu HAHA sempat lagi tu urang ambik gambar sama kami, padahal kenal pun nda XD

I give the club a rating of 2.89 out of 5.

And some parts of it were kinda..scary (but it is to be expected in such situation/scene) cause there was this drunk dude from campus who kept clinging on to us wherever we went, and then kept on asking my name (even though i've already told him) and said 'please don't forget me' and he repeated the same thing over and over again hahahaha aduii -.-

I just realized that I actually have not partayyyed in almost half a year until last night. CRAZY. Anyway I had a fun time with my girlssss, I love you all mucho mucho!

And I even went to church this morning! HAHA. I felt like crap of course, cause I was so sleepy I only had like 3 hours of sleep before that -.- Luckily I wasn't hungover though hahaha.

Well then, I should be going to bed soon... cause I need to catch up on my sleep, i've got a lot of sleep debt to pay. Toooooodles!

Life's brief candle

2011-03-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

Another death of a student again, and this time not due to accident, illness or suicide, but murder.

It freaks me out, really freaks me out that things like deliberate murder are actually so real, and is actually capable of happening even in this part of the world. But I think what freaks me out even more (and i've stated this many times before) is the fact that death can happen to anyone ANYTIME and WILL happen. And what freaks me out the most is questioning myself whether I am ready for death or not, and thinking what it would feel like to die, and whether I get to enter heaven.

I can honestly say, no, I am not ready to die cause I already have this firm mindset that i'll be living years and years of life, going through all the motions experiencing every life phase, work, marriage, having a family, making it big, serving God, growing old. But when I realize that it is meant to be for some people to die young, it freaks me out like CRAZY. Dying young? It can happen. to you, to me, anyone. It's so incredibly real...

As of now I can just thank God to no ends that I am still breathing, that my family members are still breathing, that everything is still ok. I can't imagine the countless times i've taken the simple fact that I am still well and alive, for granted.

Rest in peace, Tiffany Wong.

Optimism

2011-03-18T00:59:00.000+08:00

"Every dark cloud has a silver lining and gold is found buried in dirt; even so all glory is achieved by travail and tribulation." -Jim Welch